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I know that my journal has died out and I suppose that I have actually officially stopped writing in here. But sometimes I still feel like write one or two sentences, maybe just for myself.
Right now I am in London, and have started my graduated school. I am only staying here for one semester, starting next year January I will go to Paris for another year. I really do not regret to have decided for this school. I think I have finally found the right place to be, the right people to talk and the right path to go. Even though not everything has worked out perfectly, in contrast, a lot of things went wrong. But I think i am still fortunate, I am fortunate because of lot of things. Not that I have started a new and excited stage in my life, but also because I am loved and taken cared by a lot of people.
The last four months I have spent in Japan were just wonderful. I had a very great internship and did a very good job on my bachelor thesis (even though I was desperate during most of the time...). But the most important thing is that I finally found my way to him. And he also to me. In the past one year I have always thought it was only me who has been thinking about him and loving him. And perhaps it was even true. He told me he was very uncertain at that time, that he was not sure about our relationship. But this time, every uncertainty could be unsettled. But I did not give in, I just could not. Like I always do. And I made it.
Now, none of use two can keep going on without the other person. So close have we became to. It is just like a miracle, sparkling, glittering, lasting forever. I thought I was happy, but I did not know that I can become even more happier. Now I know. I thought I was in love, but I did not know that I can even love even more. Now I know. I though I missed him, but I did not know that I can share so much tears for him. Now I know. I think we both know now.
I just hope that we can continue going our way, and finally found our joing way, that we will work together, forever from now.
Right now I am in London, and have started my graduated school. I am only staying here for one semester, starting next year January I will go to Paris for another year. I really do not regret to have decided for this school. I think I have finally found the right place to be, the right people to talk and the right path to go. Even though not everything has worked out perfectly, in contrast, a lot of things went wrong. But I think i am still fortunate, I am fortunate because of lot of things. Not that I have started a new and excited stage in my life, but also because I am loved and taken cared by a lot of people.
The last four months I have spent in Japan were just wonderful. I had a very great internship and did a very good job on my bachelor thesis (even though I was desperate during most of the time...). But the most important thing is that I finally found my way to him. And he also to me. In the past one year I have always thought it was only me who has been thinking about him and loving him. And perhaps it was even true. He told me he was very uncertain at that time, that he was not sure about our relationship. But this time, every uncertainty could be unsettled. But I did not give in, I just could not. Like I always do. And I made it.
Now, none of use two can keep going on without the other person. So close have we became to. It is just like a miracle, sparkling, glittering, lasting forever. I thought I was happy, but I did not know that I can become even more happier. Now I know. I thought I was in love, but I did not know that I can even love even more. Now I know. I though I missed him, but I did not know that I can share so much tears for him. Now I know. I think we both know now.
I just hope that we can continue going our way, and finally found our joing way, that we will work together, forever from now.