The Voice I Left (9\?)

Jan 23, 2012 12:35

Title: The Voice I Left
Pairing: Pikame(slight Akame)
Rating: PG-13, NC-17 (for one part in this chapter)
Genre: Angst
Summary:
Yamapi loves Kame but he doesn't show it because Kame loves Jin. One
day an accident happened that caused Kame to become blind. What will
happen when Kame mistakes Yamapi from Jin? Can Yamapi control his broken
heart?
Disclaimer: I only own the plot

|| Chapter One || || Chapter Two || || Chapter Three || || Chapter Four || || Chapter Five ||
|| Chapter Six || || Chapter Seven || || Chapter Eight ||

New Chapter:

A light was constructed perfectly on the glass window that reflected on the bed. The sun was shining brightly outside now. Curtains were flying tenderly along the big room where a white bed stayed at the middle of it.

The guy carefully moved his fingers slowly on the sheets. He started to rub his eyes as he felt that no one was on the bed with him now. In shock, he quickly sat on it. He kept touching every part of the bed to at least feel if Yamapi was still there, but to his disappointment no one was there.

That’s when he started to smell something, something that makes him hungry early in the morning. The smell of fried eggs and tuna can be smelled all over the place. An eyebrow raised on his face. This made him more confused.

‘Someone’s cooking?’ he finally concluded inside his mind.

Kame was about to get out from the bed when suddenly the door opened, making him glued on his spot.

An awkward cough was heard, as the door continued to make an opening sound. Footsteps made its way to Kame.

“Good morning..” Kame greeted cutely making the other guy even more tensed.

“G-good morning..” The other stuttered as he was holding a tray on his hands. It has Kame’s breakfast on it.

Now, Yamapi, started to walk in a fast pace towards Kame.

“What’s the matter?”

“Nothing…”

Kame frowned; even if he can’t see anything he knows that the other was so nervous now.  He can hear the plates were trembling slightly with the hard metals.

“Uhmm..Here eat this..” a sudden change of voice came from Yamapi as he stopped from walking and the thing that he was holding earlier was already on the lap of Kame.

Kame was stuttered with the sudden act. When he took hold of the thing in front him, he accidentally dropped the fork out of the tray. Yamapi jumped a little when he heard that tiny little crash. He gulped as he looked at the very troubled person on his bed.

“Umm..” Kame started to murmur.

“Actually.. I can’t really properly feed myself..” with a twist of shyness, Kame successfully constructed that sentence to Yamapi.

The taller guy bit his lips slightly.

‘Stupid! Then I’m going to feed him! Of course!’ he scolded his self mentally as he took little steps towards the bed. He’s feeling so edgy right now. He cannot feel his heart beat anymore. Well, he really doesn’t know why he’s feeling this way. It’s just weird.

Yamapi sat beside Kame. He grabbed the spoon on the tray as he placed foods on it then shoved it carefully inside Kame’s mouth.

“Why are you trembling? Is there something wrong?” a sudden question made Yamapi even deafer.

There was silence.

“If you don’t want to feed me then…it’s okay” the younger one announced in a disappointed tone.

‘Damn, that’s not it!’ Yamapi whined inside his mind again. He breathed in deeply to take some courage in him.

“It’s not that I don’t want to feed you..”

“Then what??”

“………………………………..”

“….”

“Hey! What?” Kame asked again demandingly.

“It’s just that…”

“………….”

“It’s my first time cooking…for a person…”

Yamapi blurted it out. His cheeks were going to burst. No, that’s too childish for him but all he can feel now is like that!

Kame chuckled. That was all Yamapi was being nervous for? However, he found that very cute.

“I knew you’d laugh at me..”

“I didn’t know the great Yamashita Tomohisa is also childish!” Kame laughed even more. He was happy. He doesn’t know if he’s glad because Yamapi was too stupid or he was happy because he’s the first person Yamapi have ever cooked for. Well, it’s all mixed now. Because of too much thinking, he didn’t notice that this was the only time that he’ll laugh like this again. He never laughed for months.

Yamapi rolled his eyes.

“Ahh! Fine! I just don’t know how you’ll react to it..that’s why I was really scared..”  the older guy explained in trounce.

“Are you sure it’s your first time cooking?” Kame asked now with bright eyes.

“Yes..”

“It’s delicious…”

The facial expression Kame gave stopped the time between the two of them. It was so peaceful and truthful.  Yamapi can look at it forever.

Yamapi can’t breathe properly when he looked at the very pleased Kame. He was in high spirits and it’s the first time he saw him like that.

Kame continued to laugh a little making the other more delighted.  He tried to hold the spoon again but he failed. He accidentally touched Yamapi’s hand. The two of them started to feel the heat between them.

“Sorry..” Kame removed his hand from the other.

“It’s okay..Here..” the other said as he shoved another spoonful of foods inside Kame’s mouth.

“You know, before? I really thought that you’re a genius..” a comment from the younger guy stopped Yamapi from moving.

“Eh? Why?”

“You’re good at singing, dancing..You’re cool, handsome..” a bright and mesmerized tone was made by Kame as he said all of that to the other guy.

Yamapi just blushed; at least that act cannot be seen by Kame.

“But those are all the reasons why I’m scared of you before… You’re so hard to reach.. It’s like even if I’d talk to you, you’ll never hear me.. When I’ll look at you, you won’t look back.. Even so I’d wanted to be your friend so much, you’ll never treat me as one, too..” Kame bluntly revealed. He said all of that without thinking. Yamapi’s thoughts were stuck there. Is he really hearing this? All those times, he wanted the other to notice him, too.

“So you also n-noticed me before?” a question came from his mouth. It sounded so immature for him and he doesn’t know how Kame will reply with that.

“Of course! Who wouldn’t?” the guy proclaimed in a very expected tone.

“Ohhhh..” that’s all Yamapi could answer.

“I just thought that you found me annoying..that’s why I don’t go near you..”

Yamapi chuckled. All those times, that he wanted to talk to Kame so much, Kame was just scared of him?

“I didn’t know that you’re a negative thinker..” Yamapi smiled. Kame found his self really comfortable with Yamapi. As he heard that laugh coming from Yamapi, he felt his heart skipped from its place.

“But, do you still hate me, right now?”

Yamapi’s eyes widened then suddenly the phone rang. Wrong timing.

“Hello?”

“Hello… Pi? Do you know, where’s my damn boyfriend?” Yamapi’s blood boiled at that statement. Jin’s voice was hoarse it’s like he’s severely drunk.

“What the fuck are you saying?”

“Kazuya… You know where that thing is now?”

‘Thing??’ Yamapi complained mentally.

“I-I don’t know..” he lied.

He heard Jin chuckled at the other line.

“So you’re really making fun of me, huh?” Jin started out with a sarcastic tone.

“You betrayed me and you’re a fucking liar..” he added.

Yamapi widened his eyes as he looked at Kame. Did Jin already know that he’s with him?

“Give me my boyfriend now…”

Yamapi ended the call. He walked towards Kame.

“Let’s go to Jin now..” he announced as he held Kame’s hand. All Kame can do was to nod.

Yamapi knows this is going to be dangerous but he knows that this is the only way to make Jin stop. He’ll start a promise here. He’s going to protect Kame no matter what.

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When they arrived at the front of Jin’s apartment door, Kame started to get excited while Yamapi was thinking really hard.

Once, they entered the door, all that surprised Yamapi was when he looked around, it was all chaotic. He gripped the younger’s hand.

“What’s the problem?” Kame asked naively.

Yamapi was just glued there especially when he saw Jin. Jin was looking at Kame.

“Kame…”

Kame was astonished.

“J-jin?”

“Come here…”

Kame was about to move but Yamapi didn’t let go of his hand.

“What are you going to do?” Yamapi asked Jin with all of his courage.

Jin just smirked at him. He quickly moved to Kame’s side as he pulled the guy with him. He didn’t even cared if Kame was hurt or not.

“Damn..” Yamapi tried to grab Kame again but he failed. Instead, he was been pushed by Jin out of the room. In shock, Yamapi didn’t even had the chance to go inside again as Jin locked the door.

“Oi!! Jin!! Open this!!” he said with loud knocks on the door. He was furiously mad and worried. He didn’t expect it to be like this. Why can’t he even protect Kame?

Kame stood there not aware of what is going on. He was scared and trembling. When he started to move, a hand caught him off guard. It was hard and rough. As soon as possible, the other guy started to plant hungry and lustful kisses on the younger guy’s face furiously which he cannot even struggle with.

“Stop..” Kame was begging but the other guy just continued to do that. In a very quick move, he undressed Kame’s top as he started to nibble on Kame’s nipple making the other one moan although he was crying. Jin just continued to suck here and there. He doesn’t care if Kame was crying or not.

He started to move his tongue down Kame’s lower body in a slow pace and once he reached the hem of Kame’s pants, he started to play with it. The hot atmosphere was causing Kame to sweat badly. He heard the slow sound of his zipper being opened. Kame’s tears were coming more this time. What was Jin thinking?

Finally, Jin pushed Kame harshly on the top of the bed. He was topping Kame. He brings his weight on top of Kame. Kame was fully naked now.

Tears just didn’t stopped falling from his eyes. He can feel the pain all over his body. It’s so cold. Jin started to put his mouth around Kame’s groin without any alert or even a sign. The other guy winced in pain; he was so surprised with that move. Jin’s pace become quicker and quicker causing him to moan in an instant.

“J-jin…Please stop…” he begged with all his might but Jin did it harder and harsher this time.

On the other hand, Yamapi was outside. He doesn’t know what to do. He heard more mournful moans inside making his whole body boil. His heart and mind was not functioning. His eyes became darker and darker. Is this the promise he just made earlier? He’s useless. He kicked the door in front of him but it’s not working.  He tried to destroy it with harder punches and jolts. At last the door cracked open.

His eyes were blank. He was too late. When he saw Kame, he was already naked and weak. His hands started to tremble. He saw the fragile thing just half a meter away from him. Jin was there also, smirking at Kame then to him.

In not less than a minute a punch landed on Jin’s face. His face was also messy due to the lust he has been hiding earlier.

“Fuck you Jin.. Fuck you..” Yamapi’s voice was determined when he held Jin’s collar. The other just sneered at him.

Kame was crying messily on the soft sheets of the bed. He felt so destroyed. He started to curl up on the bed as he held the sheets of it and to cover his body with it.

“You can have him now my dear bestfriend … Since all I wanted was a fuck..” Jin didn’t regret those words. Yamapi was not looking at him. He can’t read his bestfriend.  Suddenly, different kinds of punches were planted on his face.

“Damn you!”

“Let go of me!!” Jin pushed Yamapi now. He stood up as he opened the door.

Yamapi stood there as he looked at Jin.

Finally, Jin slammed the door.

“I’m gonna kill you..” the guy whispered in fury but it was too late, Jin was not already there. All he saw was Kame.

He was crying, so weak and fragile.

He held out his hand and touched Kame’s skin but there was no reaction from the smaller guy. Yamapi gave his long jacket to Kame to at least hide the other’s abused skin. Yamapi was really angry. He wanted to shout but with just the look of the guy lying on the bed, he just wanted to stay silent.

“I’m sorry.. I didn’t protected you..” Yamapi’s voice was gentle and has a twist of regret. He was so furiously mad. He wants to kill that guy but Kame needs him more now.

Kame didn’t move. He can hear Yamapi but he’s still scared. He felt so cold and neglected

Yamapi came closer and just hugged him. He won’t do anything but this. He caressed Kame’s hair. They’ll stay like this for a while. This is bad, how can he cheer him up now? It’s his entire fault. If only he hadn’t let Jin get Kame from him.

Suddenly, he felt Kame tugging on his shirt. The little guy was sobbing. He was also wrapping his arms around the guy. There he found the warmth, the warmth that was stolen from him a moment ago.

“I’m sorry…” Yamapi repeated again.

“It-t’s o-okay..” Kame replied in between sobs. His happy Yamapi’s with him. He wanted to hold on like this.

Yamapi’s heart was still aching.

“I promise I’ll stay with you now…I’ll never leave you… I’ll do that for you Kame..”

Kame was a little delighted by that statement at least someone was making him precious.

“Now I know what’s the answer to my question earlier..” Kame said but loneliness was still visible in him even if he’s trying his hard not to feel that way.

“Question?”

“When I asked you if you still hate me..”

Yamapi just stayed silent and waited for the details.

“You don’t hate me right?”  an unexpected assurance was made by Kame.

Kame brought his face in front of Yamapi then he smiled brightly at him. Even if he can’t see anything, he can see what the other has in his heart. Yamapi was stunned.

That moment was the best for him.

“But I still don’t know….. if you don’t hate me…then what do you feel about me?”

Kame waited for the reply. There was a short silence. Suddenly, a pair of lips surprised him. Kissing him gently.

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A/N: Happy Chinese NEW YEAR!!*lovelots*

multi-chaptered, yamashita tomohisa x kamenashi kazuya

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