Mundane wanderings
My knee hurts. I hurt it playing basketball, non-contact, just planting the foot down in the wrong way and the knee giving out. Perhaps I pushed it too hard working out or it was just bad luck, but it get depressing that something that took less of a second can slow down pushing myself physically. I get frustrated at it, try to push it with workouts I shouldn’t be doing, trying to will it to get better, but even as I tried to run on it the most I got jogging with a limp was a half mile. Ahhhh, stupid knee, hurry up and get better!
This trip to Korea scares me. I want to see friends that live there but I know their lives are busy. There was a moment where I thought I would spend time with Sera but after our last conversation I don’t think I will even see her. That’s sad really. Its like I put so much effort into her and got back so very little. Maybe that was the problem in the first place, putting too much effort into things that should of just died. It’s hard for me to give up, to let up the bite when I have my teeth sunk in. I just get so tired of losing friends, so tired of being alone because I chose silly paths in life. Maybe Korea won’t be so lonely, or maybe so…. There really isn’t a use in worrying about it.
Another girl is in my life, one to chase the loneliness away for a time. We lay upon the grass staring up into the shading leaves with her head nestle against my arm. Life was peaceful then, I didn’t think about past worries or future worries. I was firmly stuck in that moment, with the fall of sunlight through summer leaves bringing warmth to places that have been in the cold far too long.
This trip to Korea scares me. I want to see friends that live there but I know their lives are busy. There was a moment where I thought I would spend time with Sera but after our last conversation I don’t think I will even see her. That’s sad really. Its like I put so much effort into her and got back so very little. Maybe that was the problem in the first place, putting too much effort into things that should of just died. It’s hard for me to give up, to let up the bite when I have my teeth sunk in. I just get so tired of losing friends, so tired of being alone because I chose silly paths in life. Maybe Korea won’t be so lonely, or maybe so…. There really isn’t a use in worrying about it.
Another girl is in my life, one to chase the loneliness away for a time. We lay upon the grass staring up into the shading leaves with her head nestle against my arm. Life was peaceful then, I didn’t think about past worries or future worries. I was firmly stuck in that moment, with the fall of sunlight through summer leaves bringing warmth to places that have been in the cold far too long.