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what the fuck is up with the weather? Pisses it down with rain all day yesterday n goes go cold. Excuse me will you go back to being warm n sunny thankyou!
went to sleep listening to hendrix last night :) twas fabbb haven't done that in a while.
Was invited out to the imperial, with becca, dav, laura n ellie, funny times.
Looking after my mom today being as she feels crappy after her chemo. Cancelled my guitar lesson so she doesnt have to go out. She said she feels worse each time because its all building up inside her, i hope they don't take her back into hospital again. I hate this time of the month, watching her feel poorly. It tears me up inside n sometimes i just wana cry my heart out but i know it won't make things any better n the best thing i can do is carry on smiling. I just keep having to tell myself that its making her better, but its hard to convince myself that it is when my eyes tell me she looks sick. Contradiction of senses? Its nearly the end of it all i hope. The things can be back to normal. Everything and everyone seems to have changed over the past months. The atmosphere at home isn't the same. My dads here more often n even though its great to see more of him, he goes from being really happy n fun to being grumpy n moody rapidly. Me n my sister don't really talk that much, n shes getting to that age where shes startin to show off and try n be all grown up...but thats to be expected. She won't want to steal any of my clothes anyway =P Obvioulsy my mom isn't like she used to be. N as for me... i dunno.
Should really do some homework but i can't concentrate.
Should probably get dressed out of my tigger nightshirt too.
Iv just put up a rather cool piccie of jimmy page <3
ramble ramble bluegh
went to sleep listening to hendrix last night :) twas fabbb haven't done that in a while.
Was invited out to the imperial, with becca, dav, laura n ellie, funny times.
Looking after my mom today being as she feels crappy after her chemo. Cancelled my guitar lesson so she doesnt have to go out. She said she feels worse each time because its all building up inside her, i hope they don't take her back into hospital again. I hate this time of the month, watching her feel poorly. It tears me up inside n sometimes i just wana cry my heart out but i know it won't make things any better n the best thing i can do is carry on smiling. I just keep having to tell myself that its making her better, but its hard to convince myself that it is when my eyes tell me she looks sick. Contradiction of senses? Its nearly the end of it all i hope. The things can be back to normal. Everything and everyone seems to have changed over the past months. The atmosphere at home isn't the same. My dads here more often n even though its great to see more of him, he goes from being really happy n fun to being grumpy n moody rapidly. Me n my sister don't really talk that much, n shes getting to that age where shes startin to show off and try n be all grown up...but thats to be expected. She won't want to steal any of my clothes anyway =P Obvioulsy my mom isn't like she used to be. N as for me... i dunno.
Should really do some homework but i can't concentrate.
Should probably get dressed out of my tigger nightshirt too.
Iv just put up a rather cool piccie of jimmy page <3
ramble ramble bluegh