Everytime I Look At You I Just Don't Understand
No matter how tough and strong you try to be when it comes to endings and goodbyes, some of them still hurt more than others and cut you deep to the bone...and sometimes even deeper than that.
I'm not good at goodbyes and I totally suck at endings. When the pain of them get to be too much, I hide and bury myself in work or something else to combat the sadness and depression. I know that it's not the best way to deal when pain like that hits, but that's what keeps me from curling up in a ball and crying a lot.
I've watched two important relationships in my life die this year and the last threads have snapped and been severed. Though I know that I am partially to blame, I refuse to accept the total and complete blame for it. It takes more than one person to destroy something like what was destroyed. I've watched people take sides, and then get upset with me because I withdraw and won't talk to them about it.
The end has finally come and I bid them farewell.
I hope you find some sort of happiness and find someone who can contort themselves into the person you want or need them to be. I wish you well.
I'm not good at goodbyes and I totally suck at endings. When the pain of them get to be too much, I hide and bury myself in work or something else to combat the sadness and depression. I know that it's not the best way to deal when pain like that hits, but that's what keeps me from curling up in a ball and crying a lot.
I've watched two important relationships in my life die this year and the last threads have snapped and been severed. Though I know that I am partially to blame, I refuse to accept the total and complete blame for it. It takes more than one person to destroy something like what was destroyed. I've watched people take sides, and then get upset with me because I withdraw and won't talk to them about it.
The end has finally come and I bid them farewell.
I hope you find some sort of happiness and find someone who can contort themselves into the person you want or need them to be. I wish you well.