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it has just occured to me that i haven't updated in quite some time. Life has been the same ol' same ol' as of late. nothing too out of the ordinary. oh. wait. i got into an "accident" in keepy's car..i was driving..in her car. Luckily no one got hurt, and the only damage done was 1 flat tire which keepy had to pay for herself. Anyways, car accident, keepy's mom is more insane now than ever which really isn't good for keepy, i need a job that isn't working for a pesticide company, annnnnd......i dunno. OH. Gus is a stalker and a creepy stalker at that. Tony is "too far", and I'm incredibly bored. I've come to the conclusion that i'm feeling a bit secluded from the world as of late. everyone has their own things going on, and i'm just..me. Everyone has someone and i'm still sitting here single. It's incredibly painful right now, seeing as it's summer, i have tons of free time, and no one to spend it with. oh well, enough about that. i watched the hours (again) today, and it really made me think. Most people didn't understand that movie because nothing big really happened. It was a bunch of awkward emotions and actions, and alot of people didn't understand that was the mood of the movie. All of the main characters were mentally unstable because of their sexual preference and how their society dealt with it. Julianne Moore and Nicole Kidman lived in times where being gay was wrong. So the whole movie was showing how awkward their lives were trying to live in a world where everyone's different than you. In a way that's how i was feeling today (only not the whole gay thing). I felt as if people just don't seem to get me. It isn't that i dont want people to get me, it's just that people don't understand why i act the way i do sometimes. People don't see me as a person who just lives emotions awkwardly, they see me as a person who is just weird and crazy. w/e...enough of my tangent, i'm just saying that people don't understand alot of things if they aren't black and white. i tend to be a totally different color since i feel like my mind is on a different level than most people. not saying i'm better, just, people don't think or express themselves the way i do, so when they try to understand me, it comes out liek one big crazy mess. anyways, i should get going, i'll ttyl everyone. p34c3 (that says peace for those of u who r on that other lvl)