just another day
*coughs* god i feel like shit. i'm sitting on my bed, surrounded by homework and one of my best friends sleeping by my side, and i can't get focused. because everytime i try to write my lab report, work on my english, or read some of my women's studies, he pops into my head. now granted he is more than welcome to be in my thooughts, because god i have never loved any body as much as i love this kid. i mean i have loved, and all that jazz before, but this is different. all i want is to be with him, to talk to him....wow i souond gay. but it's true. yeah i know our relationship is really fucked up, and we have been through a lot of shit, but that doesn't make us love eachother any less. and no matter what anyone else says that's not going to change. it's kinda funny, my friends are so quick to judge me when it comes to my relationships, because apparently i do not know how to make my own decisions. well they are wrong. i am doing perfectly fine, as long as i am happy. and if i get hurt, oh fuckin well, because it was my decision and i had fun...that's what matters...i was happy. how many people go through life passing up people who make them happy, and they stay with someone that doesn't make them happy. i was fortunate enough to find someone that not only makes me happy, but i love them to death...and i believe they love me just as much back. god i miss him...it's only been a week since we last saw eachother, but it has felt like forever, we never go that long. eh all will be made right again tomorrow when i get to be with him again. well for now, i must be going because i need to do my homework and i need some sleep. goodnight and much love.