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have you ever stopped and thought about who your real friends are? cuz everyone has those friends that aren't really friends at all, you see them at school, but they don't really like you, and they're all fake. pretending to like someone they don't, just because. well i have friends like that, and ya know something i am totally sick of it. i sat there and actually thought about who i considered true friends, and who i figured i would never talk to again after high school, and ya know something, it's amazing how many people i actually don't want to talk to after high school. it honestly doesn't matter to me, friends will come in and out of my life, although each one will change me, or help me to learn something, not many of them are destined to be in my life for very long. it's really quite sad when you think about it. i dunno, cristian went to washington on sunday. i miss him so much! it sucks because he was one person, who was always there for me no matter what, and no matter who was in my life. even when he hated every single person i was friends with, he still was there for me. which is more than i can say for some people. now i know we do have our problems, he could sit there and give you a list, but it doesn't matter, nothing could make me cherish and love that boy any less. well moving on from that sappy subject. i'm so glad mary beth is in my life again. i missed her so much while she was gone. the break apart from eachother did a lot for us, and i think that our relationship is going to build stronger from that. we might still have some issues, but there's nothing that i'm not willing to work through. i love her so much, and i hope she knows that no matter what she's going through or i'm going through, i'ma be here for her, and that i'll help her through all her bullshit, and i know that she's here for me too.
now onto something completely different. it's funny cuz you know how when you let your mind wander, you never know who or what you're going to start thinking about. well i let mine wander today, and it completely surpirsed me who popped in. i never thought that i would miss him. we could have had some kind of friendship, but we both threw it away foolishly, and i'm sure we both blame eachother. well that is enough of that. i have to go for now. love ya'll and goodbye, i'll write more later.
~love always and forever~
**amy**