A tad bit confused and angered...
I don't ever really feel like this but today I kinda feel a liitle bit overwhelmed, and totally tired of being a tiny disappointment to some people. I don't really know what to do with everything that is going on. I am going to go sign up for school tomorrow, and I cannot wait till I get all that shit figured out. But here is what totally sucks, I am trying to move out right--well wrong. Because that shit is way more expensive than I had planned on. I mean I knew it was going to be quite a large chunk of money, but damn I didn't expect it to be that much. I need to quit old navy--I'm too tired of that shit, and honestly it makes me too angry for how lil it pays me. I could probably look for a different second job if I need the money. But for now I think that I am going to just focus on one of them. And my brother made another comment to me today about me moving in with him, and I honestly would like to live with him, because it would be moving out--I would have to pay rent and everything but well...I told him only if he quit drinking, and he said he would quit, but I don't really know.
And lately I have been overcome with the thoughts about how shit used to be, and I am alright with what has been going on. I have grown apart from a lot of my friends, but it actually doesn't bother me. I mean I did somehting the other day that totally bothered me. I heard that one of my really good friend's boyfriends had cheated on her, so I told her, thinking that she should know what was being said, but well she didn't believe me, and then it turns out that the chick might have been lying or not saying the whole truth, and the dude that told me could have jumped to conclusions...I hate that because the thing caused some kinda drama, and I didn't want that because that was what I was staying away from...And now it is making people think that they need to but into my life and inform me of how the think I am acting, and honestly I think that if I don't talk to them, then they should leave me the hell alone. But that is just my opinion.
I am done for now, I am going to go get ready for the doctors and work...Bless working till four in the morning....Ahhh....
Peace.