I would rather sleep
*coughs* Gosh, I feel like crap--my head is going to explode, and my chest is heavy--I mean hell I think I'm breathing like Darth Vader. It sucks. I'm hot but I'm cold--I kinda just wanna die. Ya know I will get over this, I'm about to go to the doctors and get injected with some kind of amazing stuff that will make me better--oh yeah.
So being sick isn't what bothers me because in a few days this will only be a memory and I will be able to breathe again, without coughing and wheezing. But what has really gotten under my skin and irritated the shit out of me would be one of my best friends, Nick. Yeah he and I are chill, I mean we have been friends for like three years, and we've been together on and off for like most of the time. We are great together, I have always liked him, and I love him to death as a friend. Well, he and I had kinda started being all close and what not lately, and everything was fine, but now well, we aren't talking--this happens everytime. We both get scared and we back off because we don't know what to expect if we were to be together, last time I backed off, and this time he is. It sucks but I suppose it's for the best, because I think that he would be just some kind of rebound and I don't want him to be just that--and I would be the same for him because he just got out of a relationship too. It sucks but it's true. Ugh. I don't really know what to do about it all, except for back off too, so that's what I'm doing. I will give us both space and well, just kinda see what happens. Because I am not trying to rush anything, because well Ryan and I just fixed everything, and I don't need to be makin other stuff happen now. This saturday will be interesting because I think Ryan is gonna be at Cristian's party and so will flippin Nick--interesting. I just hope everything will be fine and that I don't freak out at all. Well, I am not making any sense, and I need to sleep some more before I got to the doctors. Peace.
So being sick isn't what bothers me because in a few days this will only be a memory and I will be able to breathe again, without coughing and wheezing. But what has really gotten under my skin and irritated the shit out of me would be one of my best friends, Nick. Yeah he and I are chill, I mean we have been friends for like three years, and we've been together on and off for like most of the time. We are great together, I have always liked him, and I love him to death as a friend. Well, he and I had kinda started being all close and what not lately, and everything was fine, but now well, we aren't talking--this happens everytime. We both get scared and we back off because we don't know what to expect if we were to be together, last time I backed off, and this time he is. It sucks but I suppose it's for the best, because I think that he would be just some kind of rebound and I don't want him to be just that--and I would be the same for him because he just got out of a relationship too. It sucks but it's true. Ugh. I don't really know what to do about it all, except for back off too, so that's what I'm doing. I will give us both space and well, just kinda see what happens. Because I am not trying to rush anything, because well Ryan and I just fixed everything, and I don't need to be makin other stuff happen now. This saturday will be interesting because I think Ryan is gonna be at Cristian's party and so will flippin Nick--interesting. I just hope everything will be fine and that I don't freak out at all. Well, I am not making any sense, and I need to sleep some more before I got to the doctors. Peace.