...no where to turn...
i know that i have done so many things in my past, that to an ousider, may not have been the best things to do...but they were necessary for me to do so that i could learn the lessons i needed to learn. and more than anything else, it has been my friends that have helped me through these ups and downs...but it is amazing, because now when i need them the most, i mean i need my friends to stand by me, just to be here, and tell me that everything is going to be ok, and that in the end it doesn't matter, because they will be here for me. but they aren't. i feel like i'm sitting here, crying in the middle of no where, while almost everyone i love turns their backs on me. i don't know if they are doing this on purpose, but that is how it is. i know that when all this is over, and i am free to breath again on my own, and i call them,yeah they will probably be here for me...but where are they now? i wish i could answer this...well i must go for now, to continue to try and better my family and my life, because it all was so shitty before. well i send love and stuff in your general direction. peace.