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Basically. I am an optimist.
I try to find the best in people. I trust you. and I try to get the most out of shitty situations.
But lately, I have had such horrible luck.
It's hard.
Today I feel shitty. I don't really know why.
Maybe because I just got back from 5 days flying, and then I leave again for 5 days tomorrow morning. I just want to sleep in my own bed.
But today the lack of Male presence is getting me down.
I am not talking about a boyfriend, although that would be nice.
I have always been "miss independant". Miss "I'm okay with out you". I try to make it on my own, having myself believe that I don't need you.
However, I think not having a dad around is fucking me right off. Noone to help me fix my car, noone to help me open a fucking jar of pickles. I feel disbanded.
I have always liked chivalry in a sense. Not cheesy romance.
But the protective hugs. The "are you okays" and the "I would do anything for your wellbeing's".
I would say I miss it.
But I don't recall ever having it.
I think my laundry is almost done.
And I need a smoke.
Goodbye!
I try to find the best in people. I trust you. and I try to get the most out of shitty situations.
But lately, I have had such horrible luck.
It's hard.
Today I feel shitty. I don't really know why.
Maybe because I just got back from 5 days flying, and then I leave again for 5 days tomorrow morning. I just want to sleep in my own bed.
But today the lack of Male presence is getting me down.
I am not talking about a boyfriend, although that would be nice.
I have always been "miss independant". Miss "I'm okay with out you". I try to make it on my own, having myself believe that I don't need you.
However, I think not having a dad around is fucking me right off. Noone to help me fix my car, noone to help me open a fucking jar of pickles. I feel disbanded.
I have always liked chivalry in a sense. Not cheesy romance.
But the protective hugs. The "are you okays" and the "I would do anything for your wellbeing's".
I would say I miss it.
But I don't recall ever having it.
I think my laundry is almost done.
And I need a smoke.
Goodbye!