Look what the cat cleaned up, showered, exfoliated, powdered, lipsticked, gucci-ed, & dragged in...
I'm currently sipping instant hot Apple Cider,
I've been thinking a lot about things lately. Mostly on what the fuck I'm doing here. Honestly? I don't know. I'm always working, yet broke all the time, I feel like some of my close friends are taking me for granted, I feel like since I am broke I don't go out with those friends who want me to come out.
I'm really starting to wonder. People tell me all the time, "Oh everyone loves you Chris! You're so fun!". At the same time, I think about who really wants to stick around with me. Also, things that really shouldnt be a big blow to me somehow are. A friend of mine told me tonight that she's never thought I was eloquent. Thats just what a wannabe writer wants to hear. Then again, I've never thought of myself as being articulate either, so why the suprise?
I guess what I'm really looking for is something to make me feel like I have purpose. Something, anything!
Anyway, I think I ought to start meditating and relieve some of this social stress I have, being around people ALL THE TIME is rather tiring. Anyway, enough ranting
I've been thinking a lot about things lately. Mostly on what the fuck I'm doing here. Honestly? I don't know. I'm always working, yet broke all the time, I feel like some of my close friends are taking me for granted, I feel like since I am broke I don't go out with those friends who want me to come out.
I'm really starting to wonder. People tell me all the time, "Oh everyone loves you Chris! You're so fun!". At the same time, I think about who really wants to stick around with me. Also, things that really shouldnt be a big blow to me somehow are. A friend of mine told me tonight that she's never thought I was eloquent. Thats just what a wannabe writer wants to hear. Then again, I've never thought of myself as being articulate either, so why the suprise?
I guess what I'm really looking for is something to make me feel like I have purpose. Something, anything!
Anyway, I think I ought to start meditating and relieve some of this social stress I have, being around people ALL THE TIME is rather tiring. Anyway, enough ranting