yeeeeeeeeeeep
Well been an interesting weekend I must say.Things were very weird friday like everything that would be said or done was takin the wrong way or misinterpreted, even to go as far t say i saw someone close to me standing before me in tears from words that i said and i knew i hurt them in some way.Didn't make me feel good at all.
And even though things worked out and we both realized we were being complete dumasses that day and made it up to each other with lots of shots! Still feel kinda bad.(side note) Scary movie 3 is sooooooooooooooo much funnier when your tipsy!
Saturday well the day went much better ,started to watch Witch Hunter Robin series an I think I am really gonna enjoy it from what I have seen so far. I am already in love with the ending song..Half Pain, It has this dark but beatutiful feeling to it and makes me feel warm yet cold at the same time.Kinda like there is someone there you can just reach out to as they are reaching for you for help to pull them away from their pain , but as you try to grab one anothers hands you come up short, and just graze each others finger tips before its too late, but for a split second you though everything was gonna be ok, and it all just fades to black.
I kinda pushed my wrist alittle too much so its kinda sore this day but its all good. Hell or high water this is getting better, already cost me a promotion at work!>.<
Going out Saturday night made me realize how much I hate this fucking town ! I swear this town hates me from just the way i look and act. Well thats what you get for being an individuail and moving into a small Hik town that has to have its image and not be tampered with..Gawd people suk. So anyway.. yah went to the bar to visit a friend for his birthday and i swear I get a few dirty loks like i have no buissness being there. Well I mised him already from working late so i had a drink, and saw yet another ironc thing that made me feel all twisted and hateful inside.just another example on how people are lying and deciving and take advatge of anything when they can. ........
Well this guy was with his girlfriend who brought her younger sister along .. how do i know?.. well she was loud enough for the bar across the street to hear her as she told the whole bar Thats my sister!(Obviously they were regulars is how i found out they were a couple). So anyway they are sit in the corner and i noticed the guy being somewhat kinda too close to his girlfriend's sister if you know what i mean. The girls sister just kept kinda keeping her distance.. so i kept my eye on this for amusment factor waiting to see this asshole get slapped to hell. so anyway a little time passes and they drink a few and shots, and you can see the younger sister face si totally flushed and she is kinda -very out of it. meanwhile yes this whole time the boyfriend and girlfriend are being all kissy and stuff ect.Well its time for the girlfriend to leave for a bit but she states to the bar (yelling across the room to someone actually) she will be back later at some point. So she leaves her boyfriend and sister alone and he slides in next to his girlfriends sister and starts to out some moves on here, hands wandering getting close to her ear ect. you know all the tricks. well she kinda at first pushes him away but is totaly obvious she is too drunk so she just gives in.So they leave . after this i was done with my couple drinks and needed to head home as well.. noone i knew showed up and I still am getting these looks from some assholes like what am i doing here.(stupid ass towneis. I dont mind the looks I get them all the time, but all i wanted was to have a peaceful drink not be staered and glared at all night and given dirty looks).. so anyway, i take the back way home btween the bar and house (as I always do) and what do i see and hear.. the boyriend and the girlfriends sister in the dark corner, him whispering she'll never know just do it.. and her on her knees, well you can imagine.. I acted like I didnt see them and kept walking But made me really hate human nature and people in gerenal once again. I really cant stand two faced males, AND guys that take advantge of woman, and well yes i am sure she had something to do with it to as well but still you get my point.
When i got home at least my mood shifted when I had a friend stay up as tired as she was and had to work early stay online and wait for me just cause she wanted to say goodnight. Just made me feel good inside you know that feeling of being wanted and missed, by someone close. And well alittle after that i ended up chatting with 2 girls i know drunk off their arse( I am surpised they could still type :)) online and chatting anime with an old friend/co worker WHO I STILL WONT TUCK INTO BED!!! ^^ But i am sure if he gets my drunk enough at otakon.. he might have that .01 chance for me to tuck him into bed hehe.
So here I am sunday.. not working today , all alone , noone around and feeling alot of wierd emotions and feelingsrented moveis and eating chinse food on the couch. Kidna have that empty feeling like something is missing but dont know what is. But Music is helping fill that void. To sum up the good times are with good friends!
And even though things worked out and we both realized we were being complete dumasses that day and made it up to each other with lots of shots! Still feel kinda bad.(side note) Scary movie 3 is sooooooooooooooo much funnier when your tipsy!
Saturday well the day went much better ,started to watch Witch Hunter Robin series an I think I am really gonna enjoy it from what I have seen so far. I am already in love with the ending song..Half Pain, It has this dark but beatutiful feeling to it and makes me feel warm yet cold at the same time.Kinda like there is someone there you can just reach out to as they are reaching for you for help to pull them away from their pain , but as you try to grab one anothers hands you come up short, and just graze each others finger tips before its too late, but for a split second you though everything was gonna be ok, and it all just fades to black.
I kinda pushed my wrist alittle too much so its kinda sore this day but its all good. Hell or high water this is getting better, already cost me a promotion at work!>.<
Going out Saturday night made me realize how much I hate this fucking town ! I swear this town hates me from just the way i look and act. Well thats what you get for being an individuail and moving into a small Hik town that has to have its image and not be tampered with..Gawd people suk. So anyway.. yah went to the bar to visit a friend for his birthday and i swear I get a few dirty loks like i have no buissness being there. Well I mised him already from working late so i had a drink, and saw yet another ironc thing that made me feel all twisted and hateful inside.just another example on how people are lying and deciving and take advatge of anything when they can. ........
Well this guy was with his girlfriend who brought her younger sister along .. how do i know?.. well she was loud enough for the bar across the street to hear her as she told the whole bar Thats my sister!(Obviously they were regulars is how i found out they were a couple). So anyway they are sit in the corner and i noticed the guy being somewhat kinda too close to his girlfriend's sister if you know what i mean. The girls sister just kept kinda keeping her distance.. so i kept my eye on this for amusment factor waiting to see this asshole get slapped to hell. so anyway a little time passes and they drink a few and shots, and you can see the younger sister face si totally flushed and she is kinda -very out of it. meanwhile yes this whole time the boyfriend and girlfriend are being all kissy and stuff ect.Well its time for the girlfriend to leave for a bit but she states to the bar (yelling across the room to someone actually) she will be back later at some point. So she leaves her boyfriend and sister alone and he slides in next to his girlfriends sister and starts to out some moves on here, hands wandering getting close to her ear ect. you know all the tricks. well she kinda at first pushes him away but is totaly obvious she is too drunk so she just gives in.So they leave . after this i was done with my couple drinks and needed to head home as well.. noone i knew showed up and I still am getting these looks from some assholes like what am i doing here.(stupid ass towneis. I dont mind the looks I get them all the time, but all i wanted was to have a peaceful drink not be staered and glared at all night and given dirty looks).. so anyway, i take the back way home btween the bar and house (as I always do) and what do i see and hear.. the boyriend and the girlfriends sister in the dark corner, him whispering she'll never know just do it.. and her on her knees, well you can imagine.. I acted like I didnt see them and kept walking But made me really hate human nature and people in gerenal once again. I really cant stand two faced males, AND guys that take advantge of woman, and well yes i am sure she had something to do with it to as well but still you get my point.
When i got home at least my mood shifted when I had a friend stay up as tired as she was and had to work early stay online and wait for me just cause she wanted to say goodnight. Just made me feel good inside you know that feeling of being wanted and missed, by someone close. And well alittle after that i ended up chatting with 2 girls i know drunk off their arse( I am surpised they could still type :)) online and chatting anime with an old friend/co worker WHO I STILL WONT TUCK INTO BED!!! ^^ But i am sure if he gets my drunk enough at otakon.. he might have that .01 chance for me to tuck him into bed hehe.
So here I am sunday.. not working today , all alone , noone around and feeling alot of wierd emotions and feelingsrented moveis and eating chinse food on the couch. Kidna have that empty feeling like something is missing but dont know what is. But Music is helping fill that void. To sum up the good times are with good friends!