Beautiful Strangers
The Madonn-a-thon was pretty hot. Literally. We were all sweating like pigs. But at least the music was decent, the payoff for sweating our asses off all night being Like A Prayer finally playing at about 02:15. The things we do for Madonna, people.
Last night there were so many hotties. So many. It made me realize that I'm not getting anywhere with regards to my physical appearance. And I know what many of you may say, but I am not nearly deluded enough to believe you. So, I've decided that I need a plan. I want to be hot by age 25 and drop-dead gorgeous by age 30. Those of you who are going to be sickened by the ensuing discussion may leave now. Otherwise ...
Next term I'm going to talk to a doctor at Health Services about getting a referral to a dermatologist. I'm 21 years old and I'm still getting acne. I need to do something about that, because my skin is probably the thing that makes me feel the worst about myself. I really want the acne to be gone by the time I graduate. I'm not betting any money that one year will be enough time, but we'll see.
Next term I also plan on starting to do something about my body. This would entail eating well and exercising. I'm not exactly sure what either of those entails ... but I'm going to do my research. Because scrawny is beyond gross.
Some time in the next two terms (before Christmas) I want to start wearing contacts again. Although I have dry eyes (not to mention astigmatism in one eye), I'm hoping I can talk to an optical technician about possible contact lens solutions.
After graduation, forget about getting a car or buying property. My first major "purchases" will be laser surgeries. The first one will be for my skin, to try to reduce the scarring leftover from years and years of fucking my face up. I'm still a little bit iffy on the second one, but I'm thinking that I may get laser eye surgery done, too.
After my skin and eyes are taken care of, I'll start thinking about other cosmetic surgeries (at the moment nose and ear come to mind). I'll have to weigh these ones carefully and decide whether or not they're worth doing.
So that's it so far. I'm going to be 22 when I graduate. I don't know how long it's going to take for everything on my face to clear up, but I want to have the skin surgery done by the time I'm 25. Keep your fingers crossed for me. And for my finances. Because while this plan sounds really, really good to me, it's going to be expensive. ^^
Friends, I know what some of you must be thinking. But don't look down on me and pity me for how pathetic you think this all is. If anything, my complete lack of self-confidence is pathetic. I'm just doing what I know I have to do in order for me to have that self-confidence, which, in case you're confused, is probably completely different from what you think I have to do in order to have that self-confidence. I don't care if you love me the way I am. I hate me the way I am. I'm out to fix that.
This is the first time I've ever actually thought hard and long about what I want to do in order to be happy with myself and write it all down. I'm very excited. ^^
Last night there were so many hotties. So many. It made me realize that I'm not getting anywhere with regards to my physical appearance. And I know what many of you may say, but I am not nearly deluded enough to believe you. So, I've decided that I need a plan. I want to be hot by age 25 and drop-dead gorgeous by age 30. Those of you who are going to be sickened by the ensuing discussion may leave now. Otherwise ...
Next term I'm going to talk to a doctor at Health Services about getting a referral to a dermatologist. I'm 21 years old and I'm still getting acne. I need to do something about that, because my skin is probably the thing that makes me feel the worst about myself. I really want the acne to be gone by the time I graduate. I'm not betting any money that one year will be enough time, but we'll see.
Next term I also plan on starting to do something about my body. This would entail eating well and exercising. I'm not exactly sure what either of those entails ... but I'm going to do my research. Because scrawny is beyond gross.
Some time in the next two terms (before Christmas) I want to start wearing contacts again. Although I have dry eyes (not to mention astigmatism in one eye), I'm hoping I can talk to an optical technician about possible contact lens solutions.
After graduation, forget about getting a car or buying property. My first major "purchases" will be laser surgeries. The first one will be for my skin, to try to reduce the scarring leftover from years and years of fucking my face up. I'm still a little bit iffy on the second one, but I'm thinking that I may get laser eye surgery done, too.
After my skin and eyes are taken care of, I'll start thinking about other cosmetic surgeries (at the moment nose and ear come to mind). I'll have to weigh these ones carefully and decide whether or not they're worth doing.
So that's it so far. I'm going to be 22 when I graduate. I don't know how long it's going to take for everything on my face to clear up, but I want to have the skin surgery done by the time I'm 25. Keep your fingers crossed for me. And for my finances. Because while this plan sounds really, really good to me, it's going to be expensive. ^^
Friends, I know what some of you must be thinking. But don't look down on me and pity me for how pathetic you think this all is. If anything, my complete lack of self-confidence is pathetic. I'm just doing what I know I have to do in order for me to have that self-confidence, which, in case you're confused, is probably completely different from what you think I have to do in order to have that self-confidence. I don't care if you love me the way I am. I hate me the way I am. I'm out to fix that.
This is the first time I've ever actually thought hard and long about what I want to do in order to be happy with myself and write it all down. I'm very excited. ^^