"and all i loved i loved alone"
I havent posted in a while... didnt find a reason to... things were going well.. but then all good things must come to an end, and so back to my venting i go....
kurt halsey is fantastic!! i love him mucho! i have class in about 15 minutes. i really should be studying for my repiratory exam, but i dont want to. he lied to me. he told me all the right things that filled all the right voids. he hit me at my most vulnerable time, and here i am alone. poe knew. i know. its awful. i went against my better judgement and i believed him. i listened. i knew it was a lie, but it was such a beautiful lie. hurt wrapped up in something great. death coated with sugar. "all my wishes were for you" it's a good painting. "all the songs i wrote were for you" it sounded good. "together we would know love without limits" HAH!
and now thats it. thats the end, untill i push resume... because they wont. i'm the god damned needy one that is too fucking needful all the time. they get along just fine. im the one who doesnt want to losse them. they're the ones who couldnt care either way. it was all just a cruel joke.... a cruel cruel joke. or maybe worse. maybe it wasnt for laughs for him, he just wanted to see the tears from me. makes since. thankyou for proving to me that u are no better, but in fact worse than anyone i have ever known. at least they were honest.
kurt halsey is fantastic!! i love him mucho! i have class in about 15 minutes. i really should be studying for my repiratory exam, but i dont want to. he lied to me. he told me all the right things that filled all the right voids. he hit me at my most vulnerable time, and here i am alone. poe knew. i know. its awful. i went against my better judgement and i believed him. i listened. i knew it was a lie, but it was such a beautiful lie. hurt wrapped up in something great. death coated with sugar. "all my wishes were for you" it's a good painting. "all the songs i wrote were for you" it sounded good. "together we would know love without limits" HAH!
and now thats it. thats the end, untill i push resume... because they wont. i'm the god damned needy one that is too fucking needful all the time. they get along just fine. im the one who doesnt want to losse them. they're the ones who couldnt care either way. it was all just a cruel joke.... a cruel cruel joke. or maybe worse. maybe it wasnt for laughs for him, he just wanted to see the tears from me. makes since. thankyou for proving to me that u are no better, but in fact worse than anyone i have ever known. at least they were honest.