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TO EVERYONE:
im sorry for freaking out. i guess i had some drama catch up with me. bleh. i HATE DRAMA and here i am creating it. its just sometimes stuff like that can really make me feel like shit. i mean, it happened once before and the outcome wasnt very good...... why would u do it again? *sigh* whatever. i dont know. i guess i just cant hold certain things in my heart so CLOSE to my heart. *if u play with fire u might get burned* but i guess i never knew the fire would leap like it did.
sorry sorry sorry. thats all i can really say. i dont/didnt/wont/cant lose u. im just so tired of being burned. but i cant refuse the flame...... so..... i dont know what to do. perhaps just close my eyes and withstand the pain until it passes or until i can manage to push it under like everything else.
just a foolish invisible girl with "her heart on her sleeve" that cant handle much of anything and exposes too much soft vulnerability to too many ppl holding sharp objects.
hopelessly hopeful for a new beginning... or ending.
im sorry for freaking out. i guess i had some drama catch up with me. bleh. i HATE DRAMA and here i am creating it. its just sometimes stuff like that can really make me feel like shit. i mean, it happened once before and the outcome wasnt very good...... why would u do it again? *sigh* whatever. i dont know. i guess i just cant hold certain things in my heart so CLOSE to my heart. *if u play with fire u might get burned* but i guess i never knew the fire would leap like it did.
sorry sorry sorry. thats all i can really say. i dont/didnt/wont/cant lose u. im just so tired of being burned. but i cant refuse the flame...... so..... i dont know what to do. perhaps just close my eyes and withstand the pain until it passes or until i can manage to push it under like everything else.
just a foolish invisible girl with "her heart on her sleeve" that cant handle much of anything and exposes too much soft vulnerability to too many ppl holding sharp objects.
hopelessly hopeful for a new beginning... or ending.