Strike 3
3rd time I've tried and all I did was leave a scar... and fuck up my stomach...
I keep failing... I do have a lovely scar to show from it. I'll just say I slipped with the box cutter at work, they'll believe me...
Even with therapy and medication... I'm still too far gone
Don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to hold out like this. Why can't I just say FUCK IT and move on? Why am I still so much in love with her even though all she's done was beat me down, kill my ego, my pride, my self-esteem. Because of her I hate who I am, how I feel, and I can't seem to stop loving her...
I don't know what to do anymore. I care about her SO much and I take all the punches... This one though was a complete KO. She pulls me back into her life and just moves in for the kill. She tells me she loves me and that she will NEVER let me go again... BAM. She's gone and off with another man saying she doesn't love me anymore. I can't take anymore pain like this... I am at my absolute limit. There is no one around me that can seem to help me, care for me, love me like I need and I am at the darkest point in my life I have ever been in.
Before, I would never think about suicide... Purposely hurting myself so bad that I need to be rushed to the hospital at 4 am. They believe me when I said it was an accident sure.. but what if it happens again and I don't succeed in doing it.. They'll ask questions
I left for 3 days to get my head straight and relax, thinking my woman was ok with me doing so. She told me it was a great idea... I know why... so she could go fuck that other guy while I was gone and not worry about me interrupting. I trusted her.. I loved her. I loved her with every bit of who I am and I do NOT say that very often.. I gave everything to that woman but it just wasn't enough.
So now I'm alone... scarred beyond all belief... and just dark to the world around me. Let me fade to black and disappear... There's no light at the end of this tunnel except for that one at the final judgment.
I keep failing... I do have a lovely scar to show from it. I'll just say I slipped with the box cutter at work, they'll believe me...
Even with therapy and medication... I'm still too far gone
Don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to hold out like this. Why can't I just say FUCK IT and move on? Why am I still so much in love with her even though all she's done was beat me down, kill my ego, my pride, my self-esteem. Because of her I hate who I am, how I feel, and I can't seem to stop loving her...
I don't know what to do anymore. I care about her SO much and I take all the punches... This one though was a complete KO. She pulls me back into her life and just moves in for the kill. She tells me she loves me and that she will NEVER let me go again... BAM. She's gone and off with another man saying she doesn't love me anymore. I can't take anymore pain like this... I am at my absolute limit. There is no one around me that can seem to help me, care for me, love me like I need and I am at the darkest point in my life I have ever been in.
Before, I would never think about suicide... Purposely hurting myself so bad that I need to be rushed to the hospital at 4 am. They believe me when I said it was an accident sure.. but what if it happens again and I don't succeed in doing it.. They'll ask questions
I left for 3 days to get my head straight and relax, thinking my woman was ok with me doing so. She told me it was a great idea... I know why... so she could go fuck that other guy while I was gone and not worry about me interrupting. I trusted her.. I loved her. I loved her with every bit of who I am and I do NOT say that very often.. I gave everything to that woman but it just wasn't enough.
So now I'm alone... scarred beyond all belief... and just dark to the world around me. Let me fade to black and disappear... There's no light at the end of this tunnel except for that one at the final judgment.