More sorrow
Seems to be a trend I cannot break out of. Every time I'm close I just wind up throwing myself back in.
It's my own fault really. All those other times before as well... my fault. I seem to crave pain just to make myself still feel something I guess.
I have no idea why I need to be loved so much... but I do and it hurts.
I need to get away from everything, take some time to just really heal myself. It's hard to though when I'm constantly reminded of what I used to have not just by the people in question but by the world around me. Seeing all these happy couples sharing love and just being happy... it kills me inside to think that I could have still had all that.
Facing your demons alone is harder than it would seem... especially when those demons just keep coming back to life after you slay them...
It's my own fault really. All those other times before as well... my fault. I seem to crave pain just to make myself still feel something I guess.
I have no idea why I need to be loved so much... but I do and it hurts.
I need to get away from everything, take some time to just really heal myself. It's hard to though when I'm constantly reminded of what I used to have not just by the people in question but by the world around me. Seeing all these happy couples sharing love and just being happy... it kills me inside to think that I could have still had all that.
Facing your demons alone is harder than it would seem... especially when those demons just keep coming back to life after you slay them...