It's been a while
It certainly has been a while, hasn't it? Since my last post, my life has been nothing but a big negative.
Yes, other people have it worse but that doesn't change the fact that I'm so desperate to express what is in my head right now that I actually had to come back to here to do so.
The fact of the matter is, I hurt... badly inside. It's a feeling I'm all but familliar with these past few years it seems. Every day, I just want to end it all, escape from the horrible people who have just shattered my soul time and time again. People who just don't give a damn about anyone else but themselves.
A lot of my friends are hurting right now too, namely one and I feel so horrible that I cannot find the strength inside of me to help her right now because of what ONE person has single-handedly done to me. She knows who she is.. and I'm sorry. I'm trying to find the strength inside of me again.
I have been trying, I just cannot keep it together anymore. Any little gust and I come tumbling back down, like now.
*sigh* I hate this...
Yes, other people have it worse but that doesn't change the fact that I'm so desperate to express what is in my head right now that I actually had to come back to here to do so.
The fact of the matter is, I hurt... badly inside. It's a feeling I'm all but familliar with these past few years it seems. Every day, I just want to end it all, escape from the horrible people who have just shattered my soul time and time again. People who just don't give a damn about anyone else but themselves.
A lot of my friends are hurting right now too, namely one and I feel so horrible that I cannot find the strength inside of me to help her right now because of what ONE person has single-handedly done to me. She knows who she is.. and I'm sorry. I'm trying to find the strength inside of me again.
I have been trying, I just cannot keep it together anymore. Any little gust and I come tumbling back down, like now.
*sigh* I hate this...