struggling....
Man, Today i'm just struggling with my emotions. I feel So SAD and just Flustered, i'm very self-conscious and SAD! And i'm feeling like argh i'm so self-absorbed, ya know i think about my life and myself which is considered to be normal b/c yeah i'm me, but i've been So depressed today that it's 4:30 in the afternoon and i just showered, i haven't done my homework, i've only made my bed. I just feel like a lazy Slug with no ambition today! I'm being critical, i'm overloaded most of the time with school, work,and life and all of a sudden i feel like a shlump who could be much more productive than i am! ya know!?Whatever I'm EMO! But I love everyone, but myself, i'm doing a paper for one of my classes on the differences and similarities of the behavior in children with ADD, ADHD and Bi-polar disorder, I wonder sometimes what it would be like to be balanced or if anyone really is!? Maybe we all are bi-polar or have adhd, who friggin knows? But all i know is i'm so critical of myself and analyze everything and strip it naked and take away it's prettyness and I HATE THAT! But it's who i am....i think, oh whatever, anyone who has advice or an opinion feel free, but please be nice...:) i'm going, tata.