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i am feeling down. there's nothing that could possibly cheer me up. christmas sucks. and just like my mother said... i am a failure. she was right. all this time i was getting mad at her for saying such hurtful words to me.. and meanwhile.. she was speaking the truth.
i seem to push a lot of people away. and i do this to protect myself. protect myself from further damage.
everyone's all happy cheery.. and i am depressed. i am feeling like nothing in this world makes any sense. including me. all i want is just a day of happiness. and i have yet to recieve that. i am jealous of other people's pretty smiles. becuase all mine is.. is a fake ugly one.
i chose not to celebrate xmas this year but for everyone who does.. happy holidays. i hope your holiday is filled with happiness and love. and if it is.. can i have some? tee..
[ xoxo ]
i seem to push a lot of people away. and i do this to protect myself. protect myself from further damage.
everyone's all happy cheery.. and i am depressed. i am feeling like nothing in this world makes any sense. including me. all i want is just a day of happiness. and i have yet to recieve that. i am jealous of other people's pretty smiles. becuase all mine is.. is a fake ugly one.
i chose not to celebrate xmas this year but for everyone who does.. happy holidays. i hope your holiday is filled with happiness and love. and if it is.. can i have some? tee..
[ xoxo ]