Bored
So far today has definatly been a lazy saturday. I have absolutly nothing to do until later today. Last night Kristina, Sarah, Rich and I went to the Shiawasse county fair, and then to see Skeleton Key. I was extremely scared. We all scooted together so that the scary people wouldn't get us. Everytime we got to a really scary part Rich would hit me and make me jump. He was being really mean.
Lately I have been thinking about my life and how much I miss having a boyfriend. There have been lots of different guys in my life for the past year, but for one reason or another they all kiss me and then the next day pretend like it never happened. At first I thought that I was supposed to be single for a while so I could find myslef and get my life in order, and after a year thats pretty well taken care of. Now it just seems kind of ridiculus, like I'm doomed. I know thats an unrealistic thing to say but thats how I really feel. When I hang out with most of my friends I feel even more so like that because they are all very lucky and they have boyfriends. In reality i think this problem is mostly my fault because in the begining i pushe guys away because i was scared, and hurt. Now i just pick the wrong ones and I kiss them too soon, so they think that there is no commitment involved, so they just leave.
Anyways those are my thoughts
Lately I have been thinking about my life and how much I miss having a boyfriend. There have been lots of different guys in my life for the past year, but for one reason or another they all kiss me and then the next day pretend like it never happened. At first I thought that I was supposed to be single for a while so I could find myslef and get my life in order, and after a year thats pretty well taken care of. Now it just seems kind of ridiculus, like I'm doomed. I know thats an unrealistic thing to say but thats how I really feel. When I hang out with most of my friends I feel even more so like that because they are all very lucky and they have boyfriends. In reality i think this problem is mostly my fault because in the begining i pushe guys away because i was scared, and hurt. Now i just pick the wrong ones and I kiss them too soon, so they think that there is no commitment involved, so they just leave.
Anyways those are my thoughts