ugh

[korisia]

so like i had this dream last night about shaun. somehow i ended up living back in elyria, across the hall from him. he had a new roommate apparently, and it was someone i knew, and he was payin me to clean their place. at first it was fine everytime i was cleaning shaun wasnt there, then one day while i was cleaning he came home earily and freaked to see me in his place but didnt say anything to me. then i left for alittle and came back, he was still there somewhere. as i was walking around picking things up, i turned the corner to see him standing there facing me holding his gun pointed at me. before i could say anything he shot me twice in the head... but i didnt die from it somehow. he didnt seem to care that he just shot me. he walked by me while i was laying on the floor screaming in pain. then tells me that its my fault things are how they are, and that i was the one that messed things up between us, and that he did really care about me, but not anymore cuz i fucked him over. then he walked away without another word or callin 911 to get me to a hospital. i ended up crawling back to my place and layin on my bed for hours afterword through the pain. then i woke up...

wtf is wrong with me... i am scared that he has guns but i dont think he would really shoot me. is this suppose to mean somethign? =/ i dunno what to think and i cant stop shaking