Some things come and go..
I know it, and I know they know it too... I didn't do the greatest on the placement interview. I was honest when I didn't know the answer's though. I know my strength and my weaknesses and I tried my hardest. I will hear back from them next week, I'm not sure if I will get a placement with them or not. I would really like to be a part of their program, but if they don't pick me, I okay with that. I think that a lot of my fear comes from being embarrassed if I don't make it, but I shouldn't be embarrassed. I tried, went there, I smiled, I brought everything I knew to the table and for that I think I was brave. I don't always handle interviews the greatest, I often fidget and second guess myself and so forth. It is definitly a something I need to work harder at.
I am still torn with this field, I want to continue the program regardless of my findings. I have a really enjoy working with developmentally delayed children and adolescence. I love teaching life skills, providing hands on learning experiences and enriching my skills in the process. I think that it might be something that I would rather be doing with myself. I like youth working, its great, but I don't know if I can see myself doing it forever. It all seems so draining and over baring at times... at times very stressful and I get stressed easily. I have a big heart, I am patient and empathetic, caring and am a good listener, but I don't feel as though I have the long term ability to give this field everything that it needs.
I enjoy my programs, its fantastic learning new things and being apart of the big picture, but I think the route of an educational assistant at a school for developmentally delayed children might be more for me. I guess in time I will figure it out, I still have time for it, after all I am still young.
I am still torn with this field, I want to continue the program regardless of my findings. I have a really enjoy working with developmentally delayed children and adolescence. I love teaching life skills, providing hands on learning experiences and enriching my skills in the process. I think that it might be something that I would rather be doing with myself. I like youth working, its great, but I don't know if I can see myself doing it forever. It all seems so draining and over baring at times... at times very stressful and I get stressed easily. I have a big heart, I am patient and empathetic, caring and am a good listener, but I don't feel as though I have the long term ability to give this field everything that it needs.
I enjoy my programs, its fantastic learning new things and being apart of the big picture, but I think the route of an educational assistant at a school for developmentally delayed children might be more for me. I guess in time I will figure it out, I still have time for it, after all I am still young.