okay so i've decided
i think i am going to update this more often. With more relevant details of my life. This whole week i've been moving my stuff out of this house my family used to own. I just realized recently that i dont really have a proper place to stay. I dont mind this much except for it takes a major toll on my neck. Sleeping on weird things give me mad stiff neck. The result of this? i've decided its better to go back to Arizona for a while to get a job and get back up on my feet and get soemthings in order along with some cash. I still need to pay off my dues to my school but that will come together in time. I've been contemplating my options on a more deeper level these days but somestimes its like i cant really feel myself being completely with the options that i have presented to myself. But i suppose thats how its turns out these days. I was speakign with my aunt today and i was surprised that she actually took my arguement that i enevr had an aspiring dream to be anything as a child. :-/ its one of my personal conumdrums. Tomorrow im supposedly supposed to finally get the house completelty moved out of and i most likely will go out with Gilbert on Saturday.. im looking forward to that. My ex of sorts is back in my life in a weird way. I dont know what to really think of him and his prescence in my life.. i truthfully find it quirky and weird.. Well i suppose if hes meant to do soemthing meaningful it'll happen? maybe?