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Talk about me like I can't read. Like I don't understand. Like I don't care.
Despite what you all think, I'm not stupid, you know. I was told to make my own decisions. No one wants to let me though. Everyone knows what's best for me. But they aren't me, though.
As for speaking to my uncle? Yeah, I might continue to do so if I find something to say. He's my uncle. I speak to all of my family. I speak to lots of people. I've committed no crime in speaking to him. I've merely spoken to him the same way the rest of you do. If he's going to hurt me for merely speaking to him as the rest of you do, then I guess that's going to be what's going to happen. If the mortals can speak to him, so can I. I wasn't supposed to speak to Uncle Poseidon either. Everyone jumped on me immediately after he got here, did I say hello wrong? I might have. Is that why he hates me? I can't think of any other reason I've given him to hate me. I was...surprised. But I've been trying so hard to be better since then! I've been trying so very hard, but that just isn't good enough, is it? Nothing is ever good enough when I do it.
He's part of my family. Yeah, I know what happens. We all know. But he's still family. I like my family. In speaking to my family, I'm not trying to do anything other than get to know them. It's not like I ever had much of a chance before...and now you're all here! Why wouldn't I speak to you?
Why won't anyone just give me a chance? Give me a chance to be a grown up, to learn what I need to do, because I am trying! Really I am! But...every time I try someone has something to say. It's not like I'm a puppy, that'll just wag it's tail because you've said it's name. I can understand everything, and it hurts. People probably just look at me and shake their heads and think I'm hopeless.
I feel hopeless. I feel so many things. So many awful, bad things. They make me sad..I'd never felt that before, and I don't like it. I don't like crying either. It makes you all puffy and makes your head hurt. I'm trying not to be whiny or sad...but I can't help it sometimes.
I am trying. I'm trying very hard to get this grown up thing down. Just let me try...please?
Despite what you all think, I'm not stupid, you know. I was told to make my own decisions. No one wants to let me though. Everyone knows what's best for me. But they aren't me, though.
As for speaking to my uncle? Yeah, I might continue to do so if I find something to say. He's my uncle. I speak to all of my family. I speak to lots of people. I've committed no crime in speaking to him. I've merely spoken to him the same way the rest of you do. If he's going to hurt me for merely speaking to him as the rest of you do, then I guess that's going to be what's going to happen. If the mortals can speak to him, so can I. I wasn't supposed to speak to Uncle Poseidon either. Everyone jumped on me immediately after he got here, did I say hello wrong? I might have. Is that why he hates me? I can't think of any other reason I've given him to hate me. I was...surprised. But I've been trying so hard to be better since then! I've been trying so very hard, but that just isn't good enough, is it? Nothing is ever good enough when I do it.
He's part of my family. Yeah, I know what happens. We all know. But he's still family. I like my family. In speaking to my family, I'm not trying to do anything other than get to know them. It's not like I ever had much of a chance before...and now you're all here! Why wouldn't I speak to you?
Why won't anyone just give me a chance? Give me a chance to be a grown up, to learn what I need to do, because I am trying! Really I am! But...every time I try someone has something to say. It's not like I'm a puppy, that'll just wag it's tail because you've said it's name. I can understand everything, and it hurts. People probably just look at me and shake their heads and think I'm hopeless.
I feel hopeless. I feel so many things. So many awful, bad things. They make me sad..I'd never felt that before, and I don't like it. I don't like crying either. It makes you all puffy and makes your head hurt. I'm trying not to be whiny or sad...but I can't help it sometimes.
I am trying. I'm trying very hard to get this grown up thing down. Just let me try...please?