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Don't do this, don't do that, blah blah blah. Stop tellnig me what to do. Leave me alone, everybody.Just leave me alone.
He's here, and I'm supposed to not care. Well fine then. I won't. What difference does it make, anyways? He hates me. The idea of eventually spending the rest of my life with someone who hates me...it doesn't make sense.
But for now, I'll pretend I don't care. That's what everyone wants. So fine. That's what I'll do. But I'll be watching. I won't be far away. I'll wait until things are better. Then I'll try. I just want to see if maybe, just maybe, I can see why I eventually might love him. Since that seems to be what happens. I'm not going to be able to change that, am I? Messing up the past would mess up the future...even if the event is part of the future...I think? This made more sense when Doc Brown was explaining it to Marty. I think it did anyways. Or did I dream all that? I can't remember anymore.
But to change something that causes such a big thing to happen would be interfering with the Fates, and they don't like that. They're kind of scary. I don't want them mad at me.
So, I may not like my future. At all. But it is still my future. I hope that maybe, eventually, he won't hate me so much here. And if that happens, maybe I'll get a nice memory, so when he does come for me, that will be there. And it won't be so terrible. Maybe.
Are we going to even remember what happens here? I'm so confused. I just hope there is a way to make one nice memory. One that I can take back with me, so there's a sort of friendly feeling to make him less scary...
At least I've seen his face now. I hope I can remember that, too. Maybe I should draw it, and try to hide it in my pocket or something. I'm gonna miss pockets.
I wish I still knew nothing. I didn't think so much when I knew nothing. I could sleep too. It was so much nicer. I'm so tired. But I never sleep. I need some valerian root. That should help. That and the ability to just not care about anything at all ever again. That might help, too.
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[Filter: Theseus]
Are you still mad at me?
I promise I'm not going to try and marry you anymore.
I'm still sorry, too.
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Don't do this, don't do that, blah blah blah. Stop tellnig me what to do. Leave me alone, everybody.Just leave me alone.
He's here, and I'm supposed to not care. Well fine then. I won't. What difference does it make, anyways? He hates me. The idea of eventually spending the rest of my life with someone who hates me...it doesn't make sense.
But for now, I'll pretend I don't care. That's what everyone wants. So fine. That's what I'll do. But I'll be watching. I won't be far away. I'll wait until things are better. Then I'll try. I just want to see if maybe, just maybe, I can see why I eventually might love him. Since that seems to be what happens. I'm not going to be able to change that, am I? Messing up the past would mess up the future...even if the event is part of the future...I think? This made more sense when Doc Brown was explaining it to Marty. I think it did anyways. Or did I dream all that? I can't remember anymore.
But to change something that causes such a big thing to happen would be interfering with the Fates, and they don't like that. They're kind of scary. I don't want them mad at me.
So, I may not like my future. At all. But it is still my future. I hope that maybe, eventually, he won't hate me so much here. And if that happens, maybe I'll get a nice memory, so when he does come for me, that will be there. And it won't be so terrible. Maybe.
Are we going to even remember what happens here? I'm so confused. I just hope there is a way to make one nice memory. One that I can take back with me, so there's a sort of friendly feeling to make him less scary...
At least I've seen his face now. I hope I can remember that, too. Maybe I should draw it, and try to hide it in my pocket or something. I'm gonna miss pockets.
I wish I still knew nothing. I didn't think so much when I knew nothing. I could sleep too. It was so much nicer. I'm so tired. But I never sleep. I need some valerian root. That should help. That and the ability to just not care about anything at all ever again. That might help, too.
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[Filter: Theseus]
Are you still mad at me?
I promise I'm not going to try and marry you anymore.
I'm still sorry, too.
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