Theme song of my life_
I realize that I got this journal with the intent of venting whenever I had a negative buildup of emotions, and yet this last week I hardly even updated my regular journal let alone this one...
Nothing too serious, I'm just kind of frustrated with how busy everything is, and I'm feeling left behind. I could probably eliminate that ucky feeling if I got off my arse and did my school work, which I'm actually about to do now. So much art... *sighs* I got a lot of art trades and gift art to do, I feel just a little overwhelemed right now. I've been so stressed over the last few months that it's all catching up to me now, and it's like: GRRR-
Sure, I do have those days or weeks when everything is "all good" but then the week following is so depressing and dull, it's like: someone stop this roller coaster, PLEASE!! N' I'm hopping subjects, that's always a sure sign that my mind is everywhere... Ugh- but, my Bertha got a major update, so I feel like that's helping me to calm down a bit. It helps, knowing that I have room to expand and organize, because for some reason it just ties in to my aspect of life as a whole.
I did some thinking on my future, after I graduate (if I make it that far.), and I think that what I might just do is, God willing, stay at Office Depot and continue doing web design from home. I don't know if I'm cut out to go into some stuffy office building every morning and work on professional web sites for multimillion dollar corperations like Nike and Arista Records, or the Post cereal company, or some insurance company or some crap like that. This is me we're talking about, the very idea of having to work on pages THAT... OFFICIAL just urks me to pieces! I like what I do now, five years from now I'd actually like to still be in business with Bran, working on Bran-Kor (though Lord knows I'm fighting to convince her that Bran-Kor sounds better than Kor-Bran (*lol and nudges Bran*)). Who knows, it might develop into something major, I think we definitely have the talent. If I were in the position to employ, I'd hire her on the spot, you know, because you know people personally and what good people they are, how hard they try and are willing to work. it really frustrates me when employers don't get to know potential employees, that's why I love Sunda. Seriously, if people stopped to look at the value of a person's personality, people skills, and work ethic, instead of how little they can pay you and how many hours they can stick you with I bet the Work force would be a much more motivated and plesant place. End rant, end.
I want to have something like that, though, a steady job to back me, and then my web design as my career.
First, let's see if I can't survive college, though.
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It's gettin' so lonely inside this bed...
Don't know if I should lick my wounds or say "woe is me" instead...
There's an achin' inside my head. It's tellin me "You're better off alone!"...
But after midnight... morning will come...
N' today we'll see if you will get some.
They say "That girl you know she acts so tough, tough, tough!" It's till I turn out the light, turn out the light.
They say "That girl you know she acts too rough, rough, rough!" Well it's till I turn out the light, turn out the light! I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down till you see all my dreams.
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems.
I looked above the other day, cause I think I'm good and ready for a change. I live my life by the moon, by the moon. If it's high play low, if it's harvest go slow, and if it's full, then go.
But after midnight, morning will come, and today we'll see if you're gonna get some.
They say "That girl you know she acts too tough, tough, tough!" Well it's till I turn off the lights, turn off the lights.
They say "That girl you know she acts so rough, rough, rough!" Well it's till I turn off the lights, turn off the light!
I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down till you see all my dreams.
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems.
I'm searching for things that I just cannot see! Why don't cha', don't cha', don't cha' come and be here with me. I pretend to be cool and I wanna believe I can do it on my own without my heart on my sleeve. I'm running, I'm running! Catch up with me life! Where's the love that I'm looking to find? It's all in me can't you see why can't you see? It's all in me... all in me!
Where is your logic?
Who do you need?
Where can you turn?
Follow me down, follow me down, down, down...
Follow me down, follow me down, down, down...
Follow me, follow me, follow me down, down, down, down... See all my dreams...
Follow me, follow me, follow me down, down, down, down... See all my dreams...
Where is your logic?
Who do you need?
Where can you turn?
Where is your logic?
Who do you need?
Where can you turn?
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems...
Turn off the lights [Nelly Furtado - "Whoah Nelly!"]
Nothing too serious, I'm just kind of frustrated with how busy everything is, and I'm feeling left behind. I could probably eliminate that ucky feeling if I got off my arse and did my school work, which I'm actually about to do now. So much art... *sighs* I got a lot of art trades and gift art to do, I feel just a little overwhelemed right now. I've been so stressed over the last few months that it's all catching up to me now, and it's like: GRRR-
Sure, I do have those days or weeks when everything is "all good" but then the week following is so depressing and dull, it's like: someone stop this roller coaster, PLEASE!! N' I'm hopping subjects, that's always a sure sign that my mind is everywhere... Ugh- but, my Bertha got a major update, so I feel like that's helping me to calm down a bit. It helps, knowing that I have room to expand and organize, because for some reason it just ties in to my aspect of life as a whole.
I did some thinking on my future, after I graduate (if I make it that far.), and I think that what I might just do is, God willing, stay at Office Depot and continue doing web design from home. I don't know if I'm cut out to go into some stuffy office building every morning and work on professional web sites for multimillion dollar corperations like Nike and Arista Records, or the Post cereal company, or some insurance company or some crap like that. This is me we're talking about, the very idea of having to work on pages THAT... OFFICIAL just urks me to pieces! I like what I do now, five years from now I'd actually like to still be in business with Bran, working on Bran-Kor (though Lord knows I'm fighting to convince her that Bran-Kor sounds better than Kor-Bran (*lol and nudges Bran*)). Who knows, it might develop into something major, I think we definitely have the talent. If I were in the position to employ, I'd hire her on the spot, you know, because you know people personally and what good people they are, how hard they try and are willing to work. it really frustrates me when employers don't get to know potential employees, that's why I love Sunda. Seriously, if people stopped to look at the value of a person's personality, people skills, and work ethic, instead of how little they can pay you and how many hours they can stick you with I bet the Work force would be a much more motivated and plesant place. End rant, end.
I want to have something like that, though, a steady job to back me, and then my web design as my career.
First, let's see if I can't survive college, though.
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It's gettin' so lonely inside this bed...
Don't know if I should lick my wounds or say "woe is me" instead...
There's an achin' inside my head. It's tellin me "You're better off alone!"...
But after midnight... morning will come...
N' today we'll see if you will get some.
They say "That girl you know she acts so tough, tough, tough!" It's till I turn out the light, turn out the light.
They say "That girl you know she acts too rough, rough, rough!" Well it's till I turn out the light, turn out the light! I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down till you see all my dreams.
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems.
I looked above the other day, cause I think I'm good and ready for a change. I live my life by the moon, by the moon. If it's high play low, if it's harvest go slow, and if it's full, then go.
But after midnight, morning will come, and today we'll see if you're gonna get some.
They say "That girl you know she acts too tough, tough, tough!" Well it's till I turn off the lights, turn off the lights.
They say "That girl you know she acts so rough, rough, rough!" Well it's till I turn off the lights, turn off the light!
I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down till you see all my dreams.
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems.
I'm searching for things that I just cannot see! Why don't cha', don't cha', don't cha' come and be here with me. I pretend to be cool and I wanna believe I can do it on my own without my heart on my sleeve. I'm running, I'm running! Catch up with me life! Where's the love that I'm looking to find? It's all in me can't you see why can't you see? It's all in me... all in me!
Where is your logic?
Who do you need?
Where can you turn?
Follow me down, follow me down, down, down...
Follow me down, follow me down, down, down...
Follow me, follow me, follow me down, down, down, down... See all my dreams...
Follow me, follow me, follow me down, down, down, down... See all my dreams...
Where is your logic?
Who do you need?
Where can you turn?
Where is your logic?
Who do you need?
Where can you turn?
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems...
Turn off the lights [Nelly Furtado - "Whoah Nelly!"]