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slping at 10am isnt exactly what i had anticipated. but yea it did allow me time to think about myself and others. what is it about myself that i dislike, what about others? what do they not like me about? what do i not like about others.
why do i find myself trying so hard to pls others sometimes so much so that i hate myself for doing it but stll continue with it anyway. the animosity between me and myself have become so integral in my life that i think i have become addicted to it. The addiction of hating myself to make me feel better. some pple call it self despair i think, but this opium of despair have somehow allowed me to survive in my inner world or be eliminated.
people say what goes around comes around..twice...
why do i find myself trying so hard to pls others sometimes so much so that i hate myself for doing it but stll continue with it anyway. the animosity between me and myself have become so integral in my life that i think i have become addicted to it. The addiction of hating myself to make me feel better. some pple call it self despair i think, but this opium of despair have somehow allowed me to survive in my inner world or be eliminated.
people say what goes around comes around..twice...