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this is lame shit...fancy getting logged out of oasis when my bgs result is released today..how cool is that. Now i have to call up CIT tomorrow. oh wells the shitty part of life. legs kinda aching from the soccer on monday which is bad since its already 2 days.shows how weak i am now. haven played soccer in ages.cant be blamed. plus i haven exercised much since school started. will have to start again to prepare for next year.
met up with jasmine and zy today, after like how many months. jasmine is as skinny as ever and zy surprisingly is a rubic cube pro.haha. i was amazed at the way she taught me how to tackle the mind u 4 by 4 not 3 by 3 cube ok. and after that shes gona slaughter the 5 by 5 cube. tough nut to crack. jasmine as usual is forever not eating enough. im shell shocked she haven been blown away by the gusty wind yet.haha
have been reading this book called sputnick sweetheart by haruki murakami. a complicated love story that involves homosexuality. but thats not the part i am interested in dont get me wrong. it this love and desire thing. Sumire likes miu and also has sexual desires for her. miu like sumire but doesnt have the sexual desire and thus her body cannot react accodingly. K likes sumire and has a sexual desire too while sumire likes K but has no sexual desire towards K. K has sexual desire for this other woman but not love involved.
hmm..sounds complicated..not really. but i was just wondering..isnt it amazing that we humans can like 2 people at the same time.mayb even 3? or 4..but mayb have sexual desire only for 1 or 2 of them? many people will say they have never felt that before..but when it comes..trust me it will blow you away. what is this biological makeup we have that allows us to feel that way. maybe its a social influence? or inner locus of lost control.how oxymoronic. is it wrong to like more than 1 person at one time? who do we choose if we can only choose one?
human life is so fragile we should have been blown away long ago by all these constraints and obstacles. but nonetheless we managed to survive and well enough to offer generations more to come into this world. When do we break and when do we become stronger? Will we be able to "unbreak" after breaking? and when we do become stronger often we fear more than usual. humans are such mysterious creature i cannot fathom how much more we haven yet discovered about ourselves.
our ability to feel..to sense.. our emotions..desires..love..hatred..sympathy..confusion..when they reside all inside a being waiting to be unleashed..how dangerous are we to others or rather ourselves. this is not about society or cultures or norms..its about us humans..as one as few as many as entire...
ok i am going abit off here...shall stop and leave you to ponder..what does it mean to be human?
40: is it worth it to make a life worth living for??
met up with jasmine and zy today, after like how many months. jasmine is as skinny as ever and zy surprisingly is a rubic cube pro.haha. i was amazed at the way she taught me how to tackle the mind u 4 by 4 not 3 by 3 cube ok. and after that shes gona slaughter the 5 by 5 cube. tough nut to crack. jasmine as usual is forever not eating enough. im shell shocked she haven been blown away by the gusty wind yet.haha
have been reading this book called sputnick sweetheart by haruki murakami. a complicated love story that involves homosexuality. but thats not the part i am interested in dont get me wrong. it this love and desire thing. Sumire likes miu and also has sexual desires for her. miu like sumire but doesnt have the sexual desire and thus her body cannot react accodingly. K likes sumire and has a sexual desire too while sumire likes K but has no sexual desire towards K. K has sexual desire for this other woman but not love involved.
hmm..sounds complicated..not really. but i was just wondering..isnt it amazing that we humans can like 2 people at the same time.mayb even 3? or 4..but mayb have sexual desire only for 1 or 2 of them? many people will say they have never felt that before..but when it comes..trust me it will blow you away. what is this biological makeup we have that allows us to feel that way. maybe its a social influence? or inner locus of lost control.how oxymoronic. is it wrong to like more than 1 person at one time? who do we choose if we can only choose one?
human life is so fragile we should have been blown away long ago by all these constraints and obstacles. but nonetheless we managed to survive and well enough to offer generations more to come into this world. When do we break and when do we become stronger? Will we be able to "unbreak" after breaking? and when we do become stronger often we fear more than usual. humans are such mysterious creature i cannot fathom how much more we haven yet discovered about ourselves.
our ability to feel..to sense.. our emotions..desires..love..hatred..sympathy..confusion..when they reside all inside a being waiting to be unleashed..how dangerous are we to others or rather ourselves. this is not about society or cultures or norms..its about us humans..as one as few as many as entire...
ok i am going abit off here...shall stop and leave you to ponder..what does it mean to be human?
40: is it worth it to make a life worth living for??