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So... I have that feeling again. The feeling that a massive, highly positive opportunity has passed me by. I missed the train. I blinked, and I lost it. Now I've got to face the regret of not saying something when I had the chance.
It makes me sick, this feeling. I absolutely hate it when it's here, and it comes around more often than I feel it should. It's kinda making me bitter.
I think like this: If I wait for the right moment to say something, nothing can go wrong. But if I wait too long, the opportunity I'm pursuing might decide to remove itself from the picture, so my moment never gets here. It's in this exact situation (and only this situation) where I don't want to take a risk, because someone could get hurt, but at the same time, I feel like I should take the risk or nothing could ever happen.
It's like Russian Roulette and I'm not the one holding the gun.
Where's my spine?
"You caught me at the most pivotal moments
And now I'm e-mailing my love with a dozen digital roses.."
It makes me sick, this feeling. I absolutely hate it when it's here, and it comes around more often than I feel it should. It's kinda making me bitter.
I think like this: If I wait for the right moment to say something, nothing can go wrong. But if I wait too long, the opportunity I'm pursuing might decide to remove itself from the picture, so my moment never gets here. It's in this exact situation (and only this situation) where I don't want to take a risk, because someone could get hurt, but at the same time, I feel like I should take the risk or nothing could ever happen.
It's like Russian Roulette and I'm not the one holding the gun.
Where's my spine?
"You caught me at the most pivotal moments
And now I'm e-mailing my love with a dozen digital roses.."