Bith
Title: Biht
Genre: Angst
Pairing: One-sided Gakuto/Yuushi
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of tennis and especially not our Hyotei boys. If I did you would know ^_- Also, I don't make any money from this.
Summary: Is it possible to see things that aren't there? To see everything just how it was back then? It's strange, I see even the shop-lady that doesn't work there anymore, but, where are you, Yuushi? You aren't here anymore, are you, Yuushi?
Note- Sorry if there are any mistakes, as I said million times before, English isn't my first language and I'm not that good in it >.<
It’s funny. You tell yourself that you don’t miss what have been, don’t miss people and places from your past but when you actually walk the same path you used to a few years back all these memories come back to you. And you are starting to miss those days. It’s really funny. You see the same scenery just as it was back then.
Look, that tree across the street hasn’t been there for three years but I can see it. The candy shop I used to buy sweets from has been closed for five years already but I can see the kind lady smiling at me as she’s cleaning the window.
I feel like I’m still fifteen and not thirty. But even when I see all these things, something isn’t there. The place on my right side, the place where you’ve always been, is empty.
I’m afraid. Even though it’s over ten years that it’s empty, I feel cold and I’m still afraid of being alone. I always was. I didn’t want to be lonely, never.
Because of this I made you promise to never leave me. But you did anyway. Did you forget? We were supposed to become the best at tennis, the best doubles pair, weren’t we, Yuushi? I know that you never thought of tennis as your future but I wanted to be with you. To be always by your side and at that time when tennis was everything to me it was the only option how to stay together.
I pictured the two of us being the best, even beating that Chicken pair of Seigaku and filling the newspapers’ first pages with pictures of us holding the first place trophies high over our heads. I teased you that they would write more about me because of my amazing acrobatics. You always laughed and told me the photo of you will be always bigger.
It’s ironic. Now, you’re the one who’s on the first pages. But alone, without me. The articles about you don’t involve tennis but they’re about your successful career as a businessman. And that wife of yours has ever her own column where she writes about how amazing you are. But I know that! I know you’re awesome! I was your best friends and your doubles partner and she’s just your stupid wife because of an arranged marriage!
Sometimes they write about me too. Usually when I win a tournament. You know what, Yuushi? My photo’s always bigger. But you’re not there; I’m the only one holding the trophy.
I miss you, Yuushi. I was mad at you when you said you would marry her. I didn’t talk to you for weeks and all that time I was lonely. Even though I thought nothing could hurt more that not being with you, not talking with you and still meeting you I didn’t know how it felt without you and not being able to see you or talk to you. Back then it was because of my stubbornness but now? I would even kill to be able to meet you now, but I know it’s not possible. If I were to see you I think I wouldn’t be able to control myself and would ruin you life because of my feelings. Damn it, Yuushi, do you have any idea how much I wanted to attend every party you threw and invited me? I couldn’t face you. Not with your wife at your side. And after some years you stopped sending me the invitations. Did you forget about me?
Hey, look, there’s that bench we used to sit on. It looks pretty old; maybe if I sat down, it would crumble. I wonder if our names are still engraved there.
But you know what? The stars look different now. They are more radiant. Maybe it’s because I didn’t pay attention to them when I was young. After all, you were there.
You know, Yuushi, I really regret not saying anything about how I felt back then. If I had, then maybe… no, you would’ve still married her, wouldn’t you?
I miss you, Yuushi. I want to see you, hear your voice, embrace you, tell you how I love you so much it rips my heart apart, kiss you, but it’s not possible. Was is ever? I don’t know.
You know, Yuushi, when I play tennis I imagine you’re there with me and we win together, not just I.
Look, Yuushi, there are Hyotei tennis courts! Do you miss them like I do? Do you think of them as the place where your childhood lays? I do. They were my second home during my teen years. I remember them and I will remember them for a long time. A lot happened there, I met you there; I fell in love with you and realized it when we were playing doubles against Shishido and Ohtori. For a long time I saw how they acted toward each other and when I saw the look they exchanged it hit me. They loved each other. And maybe that was how I looked at you too. My first kiss happened there. Do you remember? It was an accident, Shishido fell on me when he didn’t see the rock on the road around the courts and I fell on you and our lips connected. Everybody was staring at us so I just acted like I wanted to kill the capped bastard, but inside I was happy, really happy. It was our first and only kiss.
Maybe I should get back home, it’s starting to rain. Just a drop on my cheek but I’m sure it will rain heavily in a moment. These past days have been hot.
I know I will scold myself tomorrow for coming here. I wonder what you would say to me if we were able to meet.
But you know what, Yuushi? I guess it’s better this way because you’re happy now.
Right, Yuushi?
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Some notes from me: Biht is 'Debt' in Korea. I used it because the wonderful song by amazing Lee Soo Young 'Biht' inspired me ^-^
Also, still looking for a beta-reader!!!
And finally, comments and critism are loved (even negative ^_-)
Genre: Angst
Pairing: One-sided Gakuto/Yuushi
Rating: G
Disclaimer: I do not own Prince of tennis and especially not our Hyotei boys. If I did you would know ^_- Also, I don't make any money from this.
Summary: Is it possible to see things that aren't there? To see everything just how it was back then? It's strange, I see even the shop-lady that doesn't work there anymore, but, where are you, Yuushi? You aren't here anymore, are you, Yuushi?
Note- Sorry if there are any mistakes, as I said million times before, English isn't my first language and I'm not that good in it >.<
It’s funny. You tell yourself that you don’t miss what have been, don’t miss people and places from your past but when you actually walk the same path you used to a few years back all these memories come back to you. And you are starting to miss those days. It’s really funny. You see the same scenery just as it was back then.
Look, that tree across the street hasn’t been there for three years but I can see it. The candy shop I used to buy sweets from has been closed for five years already but I can see the kind lady smiling at me as she’s cleaning the window.
I feel like I’m still fifteen and not thirty. But even when I see all these things, something isn’t there. The place on my right side, the place where you’ve always been, is empty.
I’m afraid. Even though it’s over ten years that it’s empty, I feel cold and I’m still afraid of being alone. I always was. I didn’t want to be lonely, never.
Because of this I made you promise to never leave me. But you did anyway. Did you forget? We were supposed to become the best at tennis, the best doubles pair, weren’t we, Yuushi? I know that you never thought of tennis as your future but I wanted to be with you. To be always by your side and at that time when tennis was everything to me it was the only option how to stay together.
I pictured the two of us being the best, even beating that Chicken pair of Seigaku and filling the newspapers’ first pages with pictures of us holding the first place trophies high over our heads. I teased you that they would write more about me because of my amazing acrobatics. You always laughed and told me the photo of you will be always bigger.
It’s ironic. Now, you’re the one who’s on the first pages. But alone, without me. The articles about you don’t involve tennis but they’re about your successful career as a businessman. And that wife of yours has ever her own column where she writes about how amazing you are. But I know that! I know you’re awesome! I was your best friends and your doubles partner and she’s just your stupid wife because of an arranged marriage!
Sometimes they write about me too. Usually when I win a tournament. You know what, Yuushi? My photo’s always bigger. But you’re not there; I’m the only one holding the trophy.
I miss you, Yuushi. I was mad at you when you said you would marry her. I didn’t talk to you for weeks and all that time I was lonely. Even though I thought nothing could hurt more that not being with you, not talking with you and still meeting you I didn’t know how it felt without you and not being able to see you or talk to you. Back then it was because of my stubbornness but now? I would even kill to be able to meet you now, but I know it’s not possible. If I were to see you I think I wouldn’t be able to control myself and would ruin you life because of my feelings. Damn it, Yuushi, do you have any idea how much I wanted to attend every party you threw and invited me? I couldn’t face you. Not with your wife at your side. And after some years you stopped sending me the invitations. Did you forget about me?
Hey, look, there’s that bench we used to sit on. It looks pretty old; maybe if I sat down, it would crumble. I wonder if our names are still engraved there.
But you know what? The stars look different now. They are more radiant. Maybe it’s because I didn’t pay attention to them when I was young. After all, you were there.
You know, Yuushi, I really regret not saying anything about how I felt back then. If I had, then maybe… no, you would’ve still married her, wouldn’t you?
I miss you, Yuushi. I want to see you, hear your voice, embrace you, tell you how I love you so much it rips my heart apart, kiss you, but it’s not possible. Was is ever? I don’t know.
You know, Yuushi, when I play tennis I imagine you’re there with me and we win together, not just I.
Look, Yuushi, there are Hyotei tennis courts! Do you miss them like I do? Do you think of them as the place where your childhood lays? I do. They were my second home during my teen years. I remember them and I will remember them for a long time. A lot happened there, I met you there; I fell in love with you and realized it when we were playing doubles against Shishido and Ohtori. For a long time I saw how they acted toward each other and when I saw the look they exchanged it hit me. They loved each other. And maybe that was how I looked at you too. My first kiss happened there. Do you remember? It was an accident, Shishido fell on me when he didn’t see the rock on the road around the courts and I fell on you and our lips connected. Everybody was staring at us so I just acted like I wanted to kill the capped bastard, but inside I was happy, really happy. It was our first and only kiss.
Maybe I should get back home, it’s starting to rain. Just a drop on my cheek but I’m sure it will rain heavily in a moment. These past days have been hot.
I know I will scold myself tomorrow for coming here. I wonder what you would say to me if we were able to meet.
But you know what, Yuushi? I guess it’s better this way because you’re happy now.
Right, Yuushi?
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Some notes from me: Biht is 'Debt' in Korea. I used it because the wonderful song by amazing Lee Soo Young 'Biht' inspired me ^-^
Also, still looking for a beta-reader!!!
And finally, comments and critism are loved (even negative ^_-)