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I watched Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind recently. At least I know Lacuna Corp is just around the corner.
Nah, I never want to lose any of my precious memories, but I'd like to at least find a way to move away from them.
This month has been honestly more depressing than the rest. Nostalgic feelings of last year in Chile and having had such a great time! I remember coming back feeling like I'm really improving my qualifications. June of this year has been a complete opposite, as if I've wound up with some sort of curse. I ran into problems with the head, and all I can think is how worst it will get. She returns back this week and I have a feeling things will keep going down hill..
I do have backup plan on private work and another internship to a place NE of Boston. It's just eh... it's tough to know about a person based on their accomplishments and finding out that maybe they are just always there to make things harder? Not sure..
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I don't feel lost. I just feel that things are taking much longer than they should have. Yet I don't want to give up. I could just go find a job with salary that could pay more than what I want to do, but I wouldn't be happy there.
That's basically been my life in an update. Oh yeah, what was I talking about for Eternal Sunshine. Yea... I wish I knew how much space to give to a person. I really do. I just want to be jump back into feeling like I can communicate with them normally like I used to, without feeling that fear that they do not want to talk to me at all. I never get this kind of fear until shit has hit the fan with them, and I'm just now not used to being myself at all..
It's wondeirng whether or not they are holding back on not wanting to talk to me or wanting to talk to me, but not wanting to.. That's what's goes through my mind. I honestly miss having them in my life. I wouldn't say I'm dependent on them, but it's just another thing to add in my life that's breaking apart.
And why do I write in this journal... I really hate to drag this negativity into my facebook or twitter. I guess it's the person I am to not want to be burden those newsfeed or drain someone's day. And livejournal seems quite inactive.
Nah, I never want to lose any of my precious memories, but I'd like to at least find a way to move away from them.
This month has been honestly more depressing than the rest. Nostalgic feelings of last year in Chile and having had such a great time! I remember coming back feeling like I'm really improving my qualifications. June of this year has been a complete opposite, as if I've wound up with some sort of curse. I ran into problems with the head, and all I can think is how worst it will get. She returns back this week and I have a feeling things will keep going down hill..
I do have backup plan on private work and another internship to a place NE of Boston. It's just eh... it's tough to know about a person based on their accomplishments and finding out that maybe they are just always there to make things harder? Not sure..
--
I don't feel lost. I just feel that things are taking much longer than they should have. Yet I don't want to give up. I could just go find a job with salary that could pay more than what I want to do, but I wouldn't be happy there.
That's basically been my life in an update. Oh yeah, what was I talking about for Eternal Sunshine. Yea... I wish I knew how much space to give to a person. I really do. I just want to be jump back into feeling like I can communicate with them normally like I used to, without feeling that fear that they do not want to talk to me at all. I never get this kind of fear until shit has hit the fan with them, and I'm just now not used to being myself at all..
It's wondeirng whether or not they are holding back on not wanting to talk to me or wanting to talk to me, but not wanting to.. That's what's goes through my mind. I honestly miss having them in my life. I wouldn't say I'm dependent on them, but it's just another thing to add in my life that's breaking apart.
And why do I write in this journal... I really hate to drag this negativity into my facebook or twitter. I guess it's the person I am to not want to be burden those newsfeed or drain someone's day. And livejournal seems quite inactive.