It wont stop raining!
So, today i decided isnt a happy day at all. For one thing, it wont stop raining. its been raining since yesterday. My power was out all night too...crazy. im kind of sad today not just because of the rain but because it finally hit me that my life is going to be changing alot. im going to be going to college next week and it kinda scares me. i wish i could be back in high school again where it didnt really seem to matter much if you goofed off or if you took things seriously. im going to miss all my junior friends too...there were alot of them. i know its not the end...but it feels like it. i probably wont see alot of them for a very long time. i know im not going away to school....im going to freaking MCC but its just the thought that i wont be seeing everyone in WIRQ every day. i wont be there when something horribly funny happens and Ms. J freaks out and someone gets kicked out. I feel like im missing out. And then all my senior friends have gone away to school. some of them stayed but most have gone away. and i wonder if ill ever see them again. Its said that you find out who your true friends are after high school. i think thats probably right. because your true friends are the ones that make an effort to see you, or the ones you take an effort to see.Conor leaves tomorrow @ 2am. Im sad. We used to be best friends growing up and then we didnt talk for a long time throughout school and finally we became good friends again. Its kinda sad, i wish id have gotten to know him sooner, but i know ill visit him in boston. i dont want anyone to leave...why couldnt everyone just stay right where they are so nothing could change? i had a long conversation last night about a very frustrating situation im in...i dont know if it helped but at least i got stuff off my chest. i dont think i helped alot. i wish i could do something but theres only one thing i could do...and im not about to do it. so that situation lies in the open still as frustrating as ever. Untill next time...which i will hopefully be in a much lighter spirit...damn the rain.