Black Hole of Shame

[koolaidsmiles]

Living proof that pain exists
Smile with fake ambitions
Nothing left to cry about
When hope is in my black hole of shame
I close my eyes and see your face
I imagined it lasting
Knowing it could never be
Hold you tight just to push you away
How many times
How many times
Will I disappear from the sight of the world
Slip into my black hole of shame
Loosing life through flames of anger
Breathing in with exhausted gasps
Leaving the laughter to dreamers like yourself
Smile one more time for this lost soul
Help me fall further into my black hole of shame
No use in clawing the walls
Too much voided space in my mind
Destruction and burning I sent your way
Only to see my own crucifixion
Reaching up with open arms
Ascending into my eternal black hole of shame