(sigh)
I had several friends graduate today. :( I'm going to miss them, a lot. However, soon enough I will be at UTC with Katie, and that is always a plus! I know we will keep in touch, but it's just not the same when we take the same classes together each semester. I don't know, it just sucks....
This makes me feel lonely...and I already feel lonely since my best friend in the entire world has basically abandoned me. She had something very traumatic happen and she did not want to talk about it to anyone...she just told me, "I need time by myself to not talk to anyone including my husband, and please dont ask me about it." She didnt speak to me for a week..and now every time that we do speak it's like spacy conversations. She used to tell me EVERYTHING! It's like there is a wall up in between us now. I dont want to ask her about it either..the whole respect thing.
Candy is the person I always want to be there, and since she is not...I feel like no one else is either.
The only person that I have is James. Yeah that's great and all..but we are possibly in the middle of divorce. He's not the person I want to confide in...
My brain is just so scattered..and i'm struggling within myself. I'm having so much trouble making decisions, even with the smallest things. I wish I could hire someone to make them all for me and everything turn out for the best.
I need to go out and have fun, but I dont want to do it alone. I feel like i'm loosing everyone and everything.
This makes me feel lonely...and I already feel lonely since my best friend in the entire world has basically abandoned me. She had something very traumatic happen and she did not want to talk about it to anyone...she just told me, "I need time by myself to not talk to anyone including my husband, and please dont ask me about it." She didnt speak to me for a week..and now every time that we do speak it's like spacy conversations. She used to tell me EVERYTHING! It's like there is a wall up in between us now. I dont want to ask her about it either..the whole respect thing.
Candy is the person I always want to be there, and since she is not...I feel like no one else is either.
The only person that I have is James. Yeah that's great and all..but we are possibly in the middle of divorce. He's not the person I want to confide in...
My brain is just so scattered..and i'm struggling within myself. I'm having so much trouble making decisions, even with the smallest things. I wish I could hire someone to make them all for me and everything turn out for the best.
I need to go out and have fun, but I dont want to do it alone. I feel like i'm loosing everyone and everything.