Surgeon General's Warning: Too Much Thinking Can Be Harmful To Your Health

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And that is soooo true. Tonite I had a little while to think about things running through my head. I woke up around 11am-12pm ish and now it is 5:30am, I have not gone to sleep, and I have an 8am class. Surprisingly, I'm not that tired. I hung out with Mikey and Tim (T-Bone) most of the night. Tim is reallllly cute... and he's 24... BAD AMANDA! *smack* anyway.... as I was saying, I started thinking about the various thoughts in my head. Earlier Mikey showed me some of his scanned pictures, and one was of Brandon biting Ashley's neck. Honestly, the more pictures I see of him, now only enhance my anger toward him. I really have no want to ever see him again. I'm finally over that stupid fucker. There used to be times when I missed the fun times we had, but I don't miss it anymore. All I feel toward him is hatred, EXTREME hatred for everything he did to me. And then I looked at Tim. Damn he looked good. So then I started the "what-if" scenarios... like what-if I kissed him? He's been flirting with me and stuff, and he has a girlfriend in New York. Then my reality kicked back in and Chris came flooding into my mind and I immediately felt guilty. I really miss him. I think this week more than I ever have. It took me a loooong time, but I really do think that I have fallen in love with him. He is such a sweetheart, and he loves me like there's no tomarrow. And just the thought of being in his arms makes me feel are relaxed and warm... I HATE planning and thinking ahead because it usually screws it all up, but I can see myself getting married to him and being with him forever. I really do love him that much. Grrrr! But I get to see him Friday! AND I get to see Resident Evil Apocalypse!! I'm so excited!
Man... now it's 6am.. and I'm beginning to feel tired... so I made a cappucino and hopefully it will belp, because I'm not going to bed for another three hours.... that sucks. I will have been awake almost 24 hours! Damn! So this is what college life is about... Hahaha! I have to master that "college nap" thing...