A lie changed a lot 10 minutes ago, and this is all I can think to do...
priscilla, a so-called friend, is cousins with staci, a really good friend of rachel's, staci and cilla were hanging out today er yesterday, i don't know don't give a fuck. Cilla basically told staci that she was surprised that I was in a relationship with rachel after everything last year, in cilla's words everything last year was that, tom and I were dating and had lots of sex, that we broke up but still fucked, and that he slept with a bunch of people, and so did i. So of course Staci is worried for rachel, and calls to tell rachel that (she used a euphemism no doubt, but mine cuts to the chase) I am a STD filled whore, and that rachel needs to be careful. And you know it's a fucking lie and i am very angry with cilla, but it bothers me more that rachel BELIEVED it, and then had to calm down before talking to me to see if it was true...she also was talking a lot about friends, this showed me a little side to her i hadn't seen. What her friends think really matters, it doesn't matter if she knows i am disease free, but all of her friends have to know as well. needless to say, i am extremely upset. I feel like yelling at cilla, and then going to sleep for a long period of time, not suicide you monkey's!!! just so i don't have to deal with this shit, so I don't have to tell rachel, "no i don't want to hang out tonight." the plan was i would spend the night and go to breakfast and the dentist with her tomorrow, and then go to the movies, now, i think i am going to do nothing. Maybe i will just do the next few weeks of homework...
i wish i had been more like my sister, but she is anti social.
i wish i had been more like my sister, but she is anti social.