My Oxymoron of the day?
I really do believe everything happens for a reason. I really do. Someday, and happily it's finally dawning on me, I'll better myself as a person. I won't ever do drugs anymore. But like it's extremely hard, you know, to actually BE a good guy. That might have been why i chose the drugs like adderall to get things done quicker, but now i see the harm that i put in alot of the people that care about me. I can't watch what i say and i can't always what what i do. But i can prove my morals and that's all i got left of me. Maybe i can find who i am as an individual by actually shutting up and figuring it out. BUT just because all i have is my love of my life, kate, and my family... doesn't mean i'll always be trapped in my room. I have so much to do and so little time to do it sometimes i don't know what to do lol. But like kate always tells me, take one thing at a time and get through with it. If you try to do everything, you're fucked in the end.