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Right now, I dunno. I dunno how I feel.. I dunno if I have any feelings left in me to even have. Over this past year, my feelings and emotions have been played with and betrayed, and walked all over by a lot of people. I dunno. I am starting to see that that has happened alot over my whole life. Everytime I allow myself to give my emotions and feelings to someone, they either take em and run, or just throw them down and walk away. It hurts so bad to evenlook at people. I know I said that I am going to move foward in life, and I try really hard, but like everytime I do, something hits me in the face and makes me stumble backwards. I can't take it anymore, but like I am surrounded by walls that I just can't get over.. This is going to be hard again. Man I hate times like these.. especcially now that I am alone..