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welp, this is my second ever post on this thing, and i dont really care if people make fun of me for doin it. im not emo, or that shit.. i have feelings and i gotta get em out somehow sometimes.
and im not gonna bother lockin this page or making it private so sorry if i offend anyone or hurt some feelings tell me if i do ....
i just feel a little confused now maybe.... i guess.
first is school... i dont know whats wrong with me and school i know i gotta go to get a good job and blah blah... i have the same prob as my best bud mark, im not motivated enough. he made me think of this actually we got the same problem i'll work this out somehow. maybe
and mark is another topic i think about. i read his journals he knows it. we just dont really talk about it to each other. he always says hes confused and not motivated for school. talkin about his personalities and needing friends. i just hope he knows how much i care for him as a friend and i will always be there for him.
second is alex.. my girlfriend. im not really confused about this i just need to get some of this out...some stuff she knows some she doesnt...
the other day we had really long talk about things and life and our future. we've talked about this before but this time it seemed like we were totally serious, to me anywayz i dont know if she felt different and im sorry if that hurt her feelings in anyway but...
talkin about us bein together for the rest of our lives and stuff and wonderin if she had seen enough guys to know if im the one, or if ive seen enough girls to know shes the one. (i actually broke down a little when this part came up in our talk.. i'm man enough to admit it and hey.. i might be tearin up a little now, but you know what? i dont give a fuck.. if i can find a girl that makes me cry and at the same time make me the happiest man alive then i know she is the one) i cant give a straight answer to know if we are perfect for each other.... you just gotta take that chance and i know for sure that i am willing to take that chance with her. thats for sure. i dont think anyone knows how i truely feel for her...except maybe her. i dont really tell anyone these things.
i guess maybe im afraid to get made fun of for thinking about these things. i dont know... maybe it is too early to think about marraige and crap. but i dont care its never too early to think about your future. it is what you set out to make it, so make it a fucking good one, cuz u only get one future.
wow that was fuckin corny.
and im not gonna bother lockin this page or making it private so sorry if i offend anyone or hurt some feelings tell me if i do ....
i just feel a little confused now maybe.... i guess.
first is school... i dont know whats wrong with me and school i know i gotta go to get a good job and blah blah... i have the same prob as my best bud mark, im not motivated enough. he made me think of this actually we got the same problem i'll work this out somehow. maybe
and mark is another topic i think about. i read his journals he knows it. we just dont really talk about it to each other. he always says hes confused and not motivated for school. talkin about his personalities and needing friends. i just hope he knows how much i care for him as a friend and i will always be there for him.
second is alex.. my girlfriend. im not really confused about this i just need to get some of this out...some stuff she knows some she doesnt...
the other day we had really long talk about things and life and our future. we've talked about this before but this time it seemed like we were totally serious, to me anywayz i dont know if she felt different and im sorry if that hurt her feelings in anyway but...
talkin about us bein together for the rest of our lives and stuff and wonderin if she had seen enough guys to know if im the one, or if ive seen enough girls to know shes the one. (i actually broke down a little when this part came up in our talk.. i'm man enough to admit it and hey.. i might be tearin up a little now, but you know what? i dont give a fuck.. if i can find a girl that makes me cry and at the same time make me the happiest man alive then i know she is the one) i cant give a straight answer to know if we are perfect for each other.... you just gotta take that chance and i know for sure that i am willing to take that chance with her. thats for sure. i dont think anyone knows how i truely feel for her...except maybe her. i dont really tell anyone these things.
i guess maybe im afraid to get made fun of for thinking about these things. i dont know... maybe it is too early to think about marraige and crap. but i dont care its never too early to think about your future. it is what you set out to make it, so make it a fucking good one, cuz u only get one future.
wow that was fuckin corny.