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I've not updated in awhile. Woo freaking hoo. There really isn't anything going on with me, save for a few things.
1) I realised I'm a bit more expendable than I thought I was.
2) That I only hold grudges when people use me and then leave me like I've no more use for them
3) I'm working at Hobby Lobby now
4) A friend from Toccoa is engaged
5) A friend is probably avoiding my phone calls at all costs
6) Number 5, I realised, is why I don't hang out with straight men...they have a tendancy to just ignore a situation-or person-and hope they go away...INSTEAD OF TALKING TO THEM...GOD
7) I could care less about dating right now because God there isn't a straight man I know that's worth my time...at least not anymore
8) That I can, in fact, get rather angry at close friends of mine for decisions they make for their own life and think that its perfectly normal that I get angry at them
9) I love photoshop
10) I'm buying a hookah because damn I love those things
11) I want pot because I need something interesting to happen to me
12) Um...I'm going to get tattoos...a lot of them...I hope...and piercings too
13) I make too many lists
14) I like having horridly naughty dreams about the bad guys from movies (Lucius, Voldemort, Sauron, Darth Vader)
15) THAT I WANT SOMEONE TO COME TO MY HOUSE AND PLAY VIDEO GAMES WITH ME DAMMIT!
And yeah...I sort of give up on a lot of things...some of the things are just...useless, will never be fulfilled. I have wanted some things for so, so, so long and now I'm just coming to grips that they'll never come true. I hate it so much. Its like...the fantasy has died and it sucks so much. So now that I'm faced with reality...what now?
1) I realised I'm a bit more expendable than I thought I was.
2) That I only hold grudges when people use me and then leave me like I've no more use for them
3) I'm working at Hobby Lobby now
4) A friend from Toccoa is engaged
5) A friend is probably avoiding my phone calls at all costs
6) Number 5, I realised, is why I don't hang out with straight men...they have a tendancy to just ignore a situation-or person-and hope they go away...INSTEAD OF TALKING TO THEM...GOD
7) I could care less about dating right now because God there isn't a straight man I know that's worth my time...at least not anymore
8) That I can, in fact, get rather angry at close friends of mine for decisions they make for their own life and think that its perfectly normal that I get angry at them
9) I love photoshop
10) I'm buying a hookah because damn I love those things
11) I want pot because I need something interesting to happen to me
12) Um...I'm going to get tattoos...a lot of them...I hope...and piercings too
13) I make too many lists
14) I like having horridly naughty dreams about the bad guys from movies (Lucius, Voldemort, Sauron, Darth Vader)
15) THAT I WANT SOMEONE TO COME TO MY HOUSE AND PLAY VIDEO GAMES WITH ME DAMMIT!
And yeah...I sort of give up on a lot of things...some of the things are just...useless, will never be fulfilled. I have wanted some things for so, so, so long and now I'm just coming to grips that they'll never come true. I hate it so much. Its like...the fantasy has died and it sucks so much. So now that I'm faced with reality...what now?