someone would drive me crazy
i havent been to school in three weeks.
that i just realised.
and surprisingly i dont miss it.
i still remember being chased out of wong's office when i asked so nicely to withdraw from school. the thought of it makes me feel like slapping his face. sigh. ohwells.
there seems to be something to do everyday. i finally found something to devote my time to.
i'm already sixteen and its high time i stop acting like a friggin coward and face my fears.
starting today i will go to work on it.
yaowen gave a speech recently that i thought was good. i mean, i could feel it. then i realised why. a speech doesnt have to have all those flowery words. what touches and affects people the most is that it comes from the heart, every single word of it. "we will fight till the end for every single point"
i also learnt i guess, that sometimes in situations we gotta take one step back to "back off" for awhile instead of tackling it immediately. they say time heals all things. i'm starting to believe in that.
life is also never easy. it forces us to do things we never wanted or thought of doing but somehow the results turn out differently, much differently from what we expected and in the end we realise that we just took a different route to end up where we were planning to.
we should never be too sure of our actions because life loves twisting our lifes at any possible point. but without the twist life would be super dull indeed.
there's a difference between self-confidence and overconfidence that could lead to arrogance.
sometimes we work so hard towards our goal. we put in our sweat and tears only to find an unexpected outcome and then we cry because it wasnt supposed to be like that. but every cloud has a silver lining. maybe a medical student spent all his life studying to be the best doctor but halfway there, he realised he chose that profession all for the wrong reasons. could it seem that he had wasted all those precious nights pouring over the books or was it that it was just about the best time he realised what he really wanted to do -- law. i suppose thats where the saying "blessing in disguise" comes about.
we often complain about not doing better and that how we should deserve more. we never ever step back to look at the whole picture. did we measure our successes according to the amount of effort put in? some people could just have all the luck but are they really learning anything when luck is with them? and hey, the outcome COULD have been worse.
i think we just need to be more grateful for what we have instead of always demanding and never being satisfied. but then again, without that hunger and yearn for better results would we be so productive? what a strange contridiction. but i guess it varies between different topics.
we often say, "never judge a book by its cover", no matter how attractive the cover is?
i feel we always underestimate the quiet ones who dont show much. they give the most surprises.
haha why am i saying all of this? i dont know. this is all coming from my subconscience. my subconscience is speaking here, not me.
then back to the topic of fear.
i should stop making excuses.
but then again, who knows what i'll be thinking tomorrow.
and to my bestie: thanks so much for that 3hour talk. you always make me learn to be appreciative of what i have. i AM thankful even though things are not perfect. i love you and i am always just one call away. although we dont talk so often anymore nothing will change the status of our friendship because we've just been through too much shit and grime and rainbows together. stay the way you are bestie and dont ever change cos you are the very reason why you're my bestfriend. you dont have to be perfect because i love you for all your flaws. including you being a dumbjock. :P hahaha okay just kidding! i want you to know you have a heart of gold and that is something so very precious and valuable indeed. (although it does get you into shit sometimes! hahaha) YOO are SOOOOOO BESTIELICIOUS!!! :P
and this goes out to liz too though i know she will never read this. i've known you since we were practically babies and you've always been my silent support. i will cry in your arms while you hold me. i know i am blessed to have you. so is my sister with your sister pat.
and for the one and only who can actually come up with the idea of "pirated uniforms". haha yes you! janice novelia chant! i'm really proud of you for being so strong. you've really developed and changed into such a strong character. never lose your faith. (:
"Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it"
gee. all the fluff in my head.
hahahahahahahahahaa.
that i just realised.
and surprisingly i dont miss it.
i still remember being chased out of wong's office when i asked so nicely to withdraw from school. the thought of it makes me feel like slapping his face. sigh. ohwells.
there seems to be something to do everyday. i finally found something to devote my time to.
i'm already sixteen and its high time i stop acting like a friggin coward and face my fears.
starting today i will go to work on it.
yaowen gave a speech recently that i thought was good. i mean, i could feel it. then i realised why. a speech doesnt have to have all those flowery words. what touches and affects people the most is that it comes from the heart, every single word of it. "we will fight till the end for every single point"
i also learnt i guess, that sometimes in situations we gotta take one step back to "back off" for awhile instead of tackling it immediately. they say time heals all things. i'm starting to believe in that.
life is also never easy. it forces us to do things we never wanted or thought of doing but somehow the results turn out differently, much differently from what we expected and in the end we realise that we just took a different route to end up where we were planning to.
we should never be too sure of our actions because life loves twisting our lifes at any possible point. but without the twist life would be super dull indeed.
there's a difference between self-confidence and overconfidence that could lead to arrogance.
sometimes we work so hard towards our goal. we put in our sweat and tears only to find an unexpected outcome and then we cry because it wasnt supposed to be like that. but every cloud has a silver lining. maybe a medical student spent all his life studying to be the best doctor but halfway there, he realised he chose that profession all for the wrong reasons. could it seem that he had wasted all those precious nights pouring over the books or was it that it was just about the best time he realised what he really wanted to do -- law. i suppose thats where the saying "blessing in disguise" comes about.
we often complain about not doing better and that how we should deserve more. we never ever step back to look at the whole picture. did we measure our successes according to the amount of effort put in? some people could just have all the luck but are they really learning anything when luck is with them? and hey, the outcome COULD have been worse.
i think we just need to be more grateful for what we have instead of always demanding and never being satisfied. but then again, without that hunger and yearn for better results would we be so productive? what a strange contridiction. but i guess it varies between different topics.
we often say, "never judge a book by its cover", no matter how attractive the cover is?
i feel we always underestimate the quiet ones who dont show much. they give the most surprises.
haha why am i saying all of this? i dont know. this is all coming from my subconscience. my subconscience is speaking here, not me.
then back to the topic of fear.
i should stop making excuses.
but then again, who knows what i'll be thinking tomorrow.
and to my bestie: thanks so much for that 3hour talk. you always make me learn to be appreciative of what i have. i AM thankful even though things are not perfect. i love you and i am always just one call away. although we dont talk so often anymore nothing will change the status of our friendship because we've just been through too much shit and grime and rainbows together. stay the way you are bestie and dont ever change cos you are the very reason why you're my bestfriend. you dont have to be perfect because i love you for all your flaws. including you being a dumbjock. :P hahaha okay just kidding! i want you to know you have a heart of gold and that is something so very precious and valuable indeed. (although it does get you into shit sometimes! hahaha) YOO are SOOOOOO BESTIELICIOUS!!! :P
and this goes out to liz too though i know she will never read this. i've known you since we were practically babies and you've always been my silent support. i will cry in your arms while you hold me. i know i am blessed to have you. so is my sister with your sister pat.
and for the one and only who can actually come up with the idea of "pirated uniforms". haha yes you! janice novelia chant! i'm really proud of you for being so strong. you've really developed and changed into such a strong character. never lose your faith. (:
"Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it"
gee. all the fluff in my head.
hahahahahahahahahaa.