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This is a poem I'm planning on including in my zine.
"Early Morning Heartbreak"
I am keeping track of time in my head, confirming that hugs go on too long.
Clarification: too long to mean nothing. Not long enough for my satisfaction.
I felt your breath catch in your chest at the same second mine did.
The seconds after making my stomach drop and my heart pound.
Trying to remember "nothing will happen. He doesn't want this."
Get in my car, turn the music up.
I am listening to the asshole who told me I liked you.
Life would have been easy if not for his teasing, making me realize.
If not for his urging, telling me it would be a good idea.
Deeply inhaling my cigarette as I watch your taillights.
Watch you turning onto your parents' street.
In the town where I now live. Because of you.
All I can think about is how badly I still want it to happen.
After spending all night trying to convince myself that you're not as cute, or as funny, or as wonderful as I'd made you out to be.
I can't quit thinking "You are".
"Early Morning Heartbreak"
I am keeping track of time in my head, confirming that hugs go on too long.
Clarification: too long to mean nothing. Not long enough for my satisfaction.
I felt your breath catch in your chest at the same second mine did.
The seconds after making my stomach drop and my heart pound.
Trying to remember "nothing will happen. He doesn't want this."
Get in my car, turn the music up.
I am listening to the asshole who told me I liked you.
Life would have been easy if not for his teasing, making me realize.
If not for his urging, telling me it would be a good idea.
Deeply inhaling my cigarette as I watch your taillights.
Watch you turning onto your parents' street.
In the town where I now live. Because of you.
All I can think about is how badly I still want it to happen.
After spending all night trying to convince myself that you're not as cute, or as funny, or as wonderful as I'd made you out to be.
I can't quit thinking "You are".