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It's been forever since i've written in this thing because I can never keep up, and all my old entries are deleted...boooooo
I got into ISU, so I'll be going there in fall which is pretty much the only thing I have to look forward to right now.(oh, and of course next monday when LAUREL comes to see me!:)) even 5 months seems like an eternity right now, but I know it's really not that far away at all. I'm just really tired of being here, and seeing people that I'd glady avoid if possible. It's hard to just forget about things when they keep popping up in front of your face so frequently. This semester I'm so antsy to get OUT that I haven't been spending near as much time studying as I probably should be. Which is definately going to have to stop!
I'm not worried at all about the living situation; Having a friend to room with makes it alot easier; It's very random how this all worked out, when I think about it. In highschool you have the friends you've grown up with (well, in my case that's a small exception), but now, since I've graduated I've branched out alot and made friends with people I really wanted to, not just beacuse it was expected of me. I love my friends from gradeschool+, but there are only a handful I can still say are close to me. It's SO different in college, but I'm definately happy it's a change. I've met ALOT of great people even in the past year that I am close to now. And at school,I'm sure that number will grow. It's hard to grow apart from certain people, but if you think about it, it has to be expected at this point. Your lives are all probably changing and you go different directions, lose interest in the same things that used to be important, etc. When I went to Washington, I was way too scared of everyone to try to make real friends. It's sad that I didn't get a chance to let people get to know who I really was. It's sad that people make judgments. But that's really not relevant now, because everything still fell into place.
Note for miss Rachel-I love you doll, and I wish you the best for the rest of this semester @ SIUE<-I hope we hang out lots when you're back home! I'm here if you need ANYTHING, hun!
Gotta run,
-Paige