Lazy days
Oh, do I miss my free time... All I can think about lately is all these stories I have in my head, fanfiction and original, and how frustration it is that I cannot just choose any moment I want to write them. I know that if I had to write for a livig, the pressure would eventually have me hating it, so even with my writer pretentions I like that it is just a hobby. I'm like that, as soon as something becomes a responsibility, as soon as I HAVE to do it, I find it annoying and uninteresting. Whatever. I've been kinda down lately. I can't help thinking I'll always have this pathetic, mediocre life... I don't know why I always thought my life would be different. I feel old and useless and , it sounds awful, but I feel so 'average' it makes me wanna throw up. No, I'm not even 'average', I'm less than that... Ah, don't listen to me... I get like this some times.
I can't wait to get paid, yet I haven't a clue as to what I'm gonna use the money for, except for all those monetary obligations that certainly don't make going to wok worth it. It sucks. I'm also currently obsessed with Wish again... LYN has heard this enough times, but I sorta love and hate CLAMP with a passion... I miss CLAMP... I wish they had gotten into Shounen Ai, they're so good at it... and the art work... ah... anyway... anyone knows if Pet shop of horrors got edited in Spain? What about FAKE V2? I want me manga, dammit!!!
I'll post again in a month or so...
Mood:
I can't wait to get paid, yet I haven't a clue as to what I'm gonna use the money for, except for all those monetary obligations that certainly don't make going to wok worth it. It sucks. I'm also currently obsessed with Wish again... LYN has heard this enough times, but I sorta love and hate CLAMP with a passion... I miss CLAMP... I wish they had gotten into Shounen Ai, they're so good at it... and the art work... ah... anyway... anyone knows if Pet shop of horrors got edited in Spain? What about FAKE V2? I want me manga, dammit!!!
I'll post again in a month or so...
Mood: