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"I need nothing if I choose to die, it's my choice to live that makes me needy"
I have chosen this life for myself. And I am happy in general. There are the few small details that I would change about my currant situation of course. But overall I am happy. I need a few things Still, but I have the major things covered. I have a pretty decent apartment, I have the food I need to eat (even some I like), I have air to breath and a place to sleep. I have dear friends that support me in my ventures, and a very supportive family.
"there are no wrong decisions, for you never know what could have happened had you chose otherwise." ~ Grace Gates
"If you could erase past mistakes would you? you answer quick, but could it erase the pain of those mistakes? Which are you actually hoping to be rid of? THe mistake, or the pain"
I can't have known where I would be if I had made different decisions. I can always contemplate the what if's. What if I had not moved out of my parents house? would I have met Mick, Shellie, Greg, Tanjen? would I have become as confident? What if I had gone away to a University instead of living on my own in Vancouver? What if I hadn't gone through with the wedding? what if I had stayed faithful to Greg? I can dream and have nightmares about the other possible lives I could had led. I feel little pain in my mistakes. And I find it hard to think of my experiences as mistakes instead of lessons. If a lesson is hard you tend to hold it more firmly in your mind. But my life is what I have made for it. I am comfortable with my decisions. It is the decisions of others that I have problems with. I have come to terms with what I have done and it is not for others to judge me. I have judged myself. and I do not think that there is a god up there somewhere shaking his finger at me.
"Any worthwhile God would rather have a Partner-in-Power than a prostrate and grovelling slave."
I am just beginning my journey through religious discovery. I have my own sets of beliefs, but I want to understand the beliefs of others. I am a very open-minded individual. I can accept a person for who they are, not necessarily for what they have done or thought.
"Until you find something worth dying for, you're not really living"
What do you live for? I ask myself this on a regular basis. And while some people spend their days contemplating the meaning of life, I have already found mine.
I believe that I was put into this world to leave it a better place than when I entered it. I know I have done so, but that doesn't mean that my life is over. I have a fulfilling life and I know I have positively affected the lives of others. And what I live for is to help others, mainly my friends. I have goals of my own that I live for. and I would die to acheive someof those goals, but what good would that do me. So I live for my friends and my goals.
I have spent a lot of time these last few day just thinking. I have a lot to be thankful for. and I have happiness in my life.
The things that I want to happen soon to make my life more complete make a short list. I want to talk to Greg. I want to find a place to work or volunteer that makes me feel a part of something larger. I want to extend my circle of friends.
Not too much to ask.
I have chosen this life for myself. And I am happy in general. There are the few small details that I would change about my currant situation of course. But overall I am happy. I need a few things Still, but I have the major things covered. I have a pretty decent apartment, I have the food I need to eat (even some I like), I have air to breath and a place to sleep. I have dear friends that support me in my ventures, and a very supportive family.
"there are no wrong decisions, for you never know what could have happened had you chose otherwise." ~ Grace Gates
"If you could erase past mistakes would you? you answer quick, but could it erase the pain of those mistakes? Which are you actually hoping to be rid of? THe mistake, or the pain"
I can't have known where I would be if I had made different decisions. I can always contemplate the what if's. What if I had not moved out of my parents house? would I have met Mick, Shellie, Greg, Tanjen? would I have become as confident? What if I had gone away to a University instead of living on my own in Vancouver? What if I hadn't gone through with the wedding? what if I had stayed faithful to Greg? I can dream and have nightmares about the other possible lives I could had led. I feel little pain in my mistakes. And I find it hard to think of my experiences as mistakes instead of lessons. If a lesson is hard you tend to hold it more firmly in your mind. But my life is what I have made for it. I am comfortable with my decisions. It is the decisions of others that I have problems with. I have come to terms with what I have done and it is not for others to judge me. I have judged myself. and I do not think that there is a god up there somewhere shaking his finger at me.
"Any worthwhile God would rather have a Partner-in-Power than a prostrate and grovelling slave."
I am just beginning my journey through religious discovery. I have my own sets of beliefs, but I want to understand the beliefs of others. I am a very open-minded individual. I can accept a person for who they are, not necessarily for what they have done or thought.
"Until you find something worth dying for, you're not really living"
What do you live for? I ask myself this on a regular basis. And while some people spend their days contemplating the meaning of life, I have already found mine.
I believe that I was put into this world to leave it a better place than when I entered it. I know I have done so, but that doesn't mean that my life is over. I have a fulfilling life and I know I have positively affected the lives of others. And what I live for is to help others, mainly my friends. I have goals of my own that I live for. and I would die to acheive someof those goals, but what good would that do me. So I live for my friends and my goals.
I have spent a lot of time these last few day just thinking. I have a lot to be thankful for. and I have happiness in my life.
The things that I want to happen soon to make my life more complete make a short list. I want to talk to Greg. I want to find a place to work or volunteer that makes me feel a part of something larger. I want to extend my circle of friends.
Not too much to ask.