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I have very few fears. Fear of becoming irreversibly ill is pretty high on my list. I can't figure out which God I managed to piss off that has me hitting one ailment on top of another. As soon as I seem to get one under control, another pops up. I hate having to sit here and wait for my fucking doctors to be in their office. i have to wait until Monday and then call them from work bcause I have to be at work at 8 and that is what time their offices open as well. I honestly hope they give me the option of just having the hernias surgically repaired. I would rather be in constant pain/drugged for 2 weeks than random pain attacks that interfere with my daily activites and work. I don't know how to afford surgery but I can ave them bill me or ask my folks for help.
I'm scared.
I hurt.
I don't want to take the narcotics.
I'm still scared.
I'm scared.
I hurt.
I don't want to take the narcotics.
I'm still scared.