Blinded, Ch. 4/x

[konicoffee]

Title: Blinded
Chapters: 4/x
Author: konicoffee  
Genre: Romance, Drama, Smut, Angst, AU, AT
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters mentioned here.
Warnings: Very basic, almost no-frills writing
Rating: R
Pairings/Characters: Aoi/Uruha, The GazettE
Synopsis: Kouyou had gone through too much for more emotional trouble.
Comments: Thought of writing this

Comments

[kawasakininja]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, you made Kai evil D: I really enjoyed his introduction and I thought I was more or less safe from huge surprises knowing bands history and now this turn of events threw me completely off balance. Do you plan to digress from the bands' history at some point? Since it is an AU story, and silly me was expecting everything to go as much as it did in reality, but with villain Kai I don't know what to expect anymore and of course you have every liberty to change things as an author and make your story more interesting as you see fit.

Apart from that shock :) I really enjoyed this chapter. I like how the drunken sex played out, as a result of Aoi's distress after the dream and not really being conscious of his actions just reaching out. I loved how you described his emotions. They were emotions only a certain level of alcohol could induce - lust, want, and absolute loneliness.

I didn't miss the smut, because seeing it only through details in flashbacks was much more interesting and added to the realism of the whole drunken sex experience. I love the emotional strain it puts on Aoi, but I really felt sorry for him thinking he practically raped Uruha, because Uruha was willing and Aoi seemed much more drunk and out of it than him. So it is sad to see him adding that huge weight of guilt on top of everything he's already having trouble dealing with. And Uruha is just great, I love his seeming lack of emotions on the one hand and chumminess on the other. I can so see Uruha being dualistic and guarded like that.

[konicoffee]

I do plan to twist things a bit with the band's history, but I'll generally follow the real timeline (like when they release stuff and such). And yes, I apologize for making Kai evil. He makes the kind of villain that stands out for me. I think sinister characters that hide behind sweet faces are scary. Plus the timing of his entrance kinda worked. XD

I'm really, really glad you think the smut worked. I didn't realize that it would be so hard to write a smut scene (first time fic writer, go figure). It was so hard to write in detail, so I had to hide it conveniently behind Aoi's drunkenness and unstable feelings and Uruha's stoicism and sheer audacity.

Thank you so much for reading! :)